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Been going up and down within the same 10 lb range for the past few months... things and holidays keep popping up and it seems like when I get my weight down more a holiday or special occasion pops up. I'll be buckling down a lot more after New Years. I haven't given up and I won't!
I still find that the hardest thing about this diet is other people... either someone is critical of how much exercise I do, or they are a low fat diet enthusiast and want to argue the validity of my diet, or they are really disrespectful and offer me things I can't have constantly no matter how many times I've said "no thank you I can't" and then proceed to eat the stuff right in front of me like they're tempting me.... when in reality I don't think about food or sweets all that much unless i REALLY want it. Sometimes they are all three of these things combined. I didn't decide to do this to look better and have a bangin body, I didn't do this to take up a cause to argue with people about, and I certainly didn't decide to do this to get harrassed by people. I decided to do it for myself, because I deserve it, I deserve to be healthy and not spend the rest of my days in a wheelchair like my mother, I deserve the chance to improve my fertility so I can maybe have children of my own. It's not anybody's business but mine and people don't get that.
Why are people so disrepectful to others?
I often wonder why a decision I made for myself and am dedicated to carrying out for myself, affects other people so deeply and causes such reactions? Maybe it's just that it triggers insecurities within themselves, but I don't believe I should sacrifice myself or my goals to avoid hurting someone's feelings.
A co-worker told me when I first started this diet, that if I turn down an excutives or co-workers food, they would take it offensively... I said well that's their problem, it's obviously not meant to hurt someone, it's for my benefit. It's amazing to me, how many people honestly take offense.
Sigh... this diet honestly wouldn't be so hard if other people would leave me alone about it. I can't wait to get off it.... I can moderately enjoy things and not worry. I can not feel so restricted in what I eat... within reason of course. After New Years the race is on. I may finish before the 2 year mark in Sept. hits.
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230.8 lb
Lost so far: 119.2 lb.
Still to go: 80.8 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 1.4 lb a week
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