I think I was apple shaped at 173. It was all my middle, I felt like an oompa-loompa! I dont know what clothes compliment that body shape because all I did was hide anyway.
I know I feel better now and that was simply from making the decision to not eat bad foods again. I had enough and I felt that my happiness (as you talk about in your bio) was all teh reason I needed to LIVE healthy and long for...not to make excuses to keep getting bigger. I don't think "happy" is the reason, perhaps, "Content" might be? Just a guess and y own opinion, but if you are not content, you can do it. Make up your mind and make it happen. you can do this! Keep journaling and use your food diary here, even on your bad days. Best wishes!