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Oh man. today was such a rough day guys. Yes, I did my workouts but my eating was so bad today. The past two days have been so emotional I have been finding it hard to say no. I snacked and ate a slice of pizza(BAD! PIZZA EVIL!). My best friend of about 14 years lost her grandmother yesterday, and though she and I often bumped heads because of our opposing views she was still like a grandmother to me. Watching my best friend go through this loss is so, so hard because I know if I was in her shoes I would be struggling if not as much, harder and I feel like I am helpless in this friggin situation. SMH I don't know what to tell her or what to do for her. It's driving me mad. The workouts helped me focus on something different to shove my frustration on. The burn was so intense, much more than it has ever been and I have not changed anything. My sleep was a bit better last night I got 9 hours(yay to that) but the emotional roller coaster saps so much of my energy, I wound up intaking too many calories(I think. I have not totaled them yet I'll do it when I wake up in the morning.)
I have also been doing better with water, I even got all of my servings of fruit today, every day of this week so far actually, so knowing i have achieved something is helping me stay from slumping to low, but this has hit us so hard it's mind blowing. She was one of those people we never thought of losing.
Diet Calendar Entries for 22 October 2016:
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1413 kcal
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Fat: 52.77g | Prot: 74.03g | Carb: 166.93g.
Lunch: Cereal with Milk. Dinner: Hash Brown (from Dry Mix), Onion Bread, Farm Stand Petite Golden Potatoes, Beef Chuck (Arm Pot Roast, Lean Only, Trimmed to 1/8" Fat, Choice Grade). Snacks/Other: Southern Grove Roasted & Salted Pistachios, Dunkin' Donuts Glazed Chocolate Cake Munchkin. more...
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3764 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 40 minutes, Stairs (Climbing Stairs) - 10 minutes, Resting - 18 hours and 10 minutes, Sleeping - 5 hours. more...
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Katsyk, I'm so terribly sorry to hear of your and your best friend's loss! My thoughts and prayers are with you! Don't worry about your diet right now, hun. In the grand scheme of life, the food you eat and your weight today and for the next few days are really a non-issue. What is important is your emotional well-being, and your best friend's. Also, don't drive yourself crazy worrying about what to say or do for her. Just speak from your heart, and do what your heart tells you to do. You can NEVER go wrong when you speak and act from love. Also, try your best to really listen to her, both verbally and non-verbally. Some people process grief in different ways and in different stages, from needing the physical and emotional support of others, to needing time alone to process their feelings. Just be there for her. Have faith, stay strong, and honor your loved one by remembering all the wonderful times you shared. :). Much love and hugs sent your way!!!
22 Oct 16 by member: Roobert
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You'r going throw difficult times so cheat days is normal, don't you worry 💪🏻 (sorry for your loss)
22 Oct 16 by member: SoonAustralia
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Katsyk that's terrible I'm so sorry so for both you and your friend...I lost my grandmother 7 years ago and I know the feeling and grief you go through. I agree-your diet is NOT top priority, worry about your loved one as well as your own emotions. You can come back to thinking/worrying about losing weight when you are more emotionally stable. Wishing you well and praying for you both! OOO
22 Oct 16 by member: XshapeshiftX
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Thank you, everyone for the emotional support. reading it was such a huge breath of fresh air. She is in a pretty bad state right now, she is jumping all over the place emotionally and I'm trying my best. I hung out with her all morning one moment she was ok the next she was bawling so I just did what I could and it apparently was more than enough for her. Thank you so so much. For taking the time out of your lives to say such helpful things. Moving forward we are. As for the diet, I think I'm going to agree with you guys and try not to worry about it for the next few days, but I'm still gonna at least get my workouts in so I can continue to condition myself and re-adjust to my former active lifestyle. Honestly I just don't want to get lost in the grief I feel like I have to be as strong as possible for her because her support system is not as strong as it could be and ill be damned if ill let her walk a destructive path.
22 Oct 16 by member: TarahTotts
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You are being a good friend!
22 Oct 16 by member: erikahollister
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Sometimes all you can give a grieving person is your hand to hold or a shoulder to cry on. Remembering the good times together will help the healing. We should all be blessed with a friend like you. ♥
22 Oct 16 by member: mskestrela
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