Ms Elizabeth's Journal, 26 July 2016

Ever blink and find out it's a different month? That pretty much sums up my summer so far. I've been super busy between the house projects, the barn projects, a preteens softball schedule, 2 boys that see summer as streaking season, and a job.. oh and a farm.. oh and um.. everything else in life. So.. I've been slacking when it comes to journaling. Then wham! Something spun me around.

I was reading a magazine in the doctors office and saw the title.. is restricting your food good? Turns out this girl checked out overeaters anonymous. If you know about this then please forgive me because I'm probably going to skewer it with a hay fork. I'm completely in the dark don't be surprised. I live in the middle of a cow pasture. Not exactly an overeaters anonymous place. Unless you count the cows.. they probably qualify.

The groups this girl tried weren't her because there is a religious factor and she didn't like how rigid it is. That wasn't what smacked me anyways it was the things this girl says the people in the group talked about. Like.. if we go out to dinner and there is a bread basket in front of me I'm not listening to you I'm imagining fluffy buttery goodness. Ok.. not exactly true for me but you take me to texas roadhouse I'm probably making more eye contact with the roll basket than you.

So.. it got me curious. I checked out the lessons podcast. Not exactly for me either. What really sucked me in was the people podcasts. They come in and share their experience.. OMG.. I'm not alone!! I'm not the only one that gets a dime bag of candy for the ride home then throws away the wrapper when I get home so the kids never know. I'm not the only one who has claimed I don't know what happened to your cookies honey.. wasn't me.. I have no idea how those crumbs got on my boobs. Bonus realization.. I've never picked food out of a garbage can and ate it so I now have hope that maybe my addiction isn't full blown and there is hope. That sounds bad right? Still it's true. I judge myself based on others. I don't really judge others I just judge myself based on them. Like asking my husband in Walmart if the woman in the spandex pants in front of us has a smaller butt than mine. I can't see mine.. therefore I have to rely on other's butts to judge my own. I haven't journaled in a long time.. please forgive me I have diariah of the journal.

Anywho.. after my newfound WHAM I'm not alone realization I immediately looked for more podcasts and more advice. Now I'm picking and choosing and treating OA as a buffet. Taking a little advice here and there and making my own plan and seeing how it goes. WARNING.. if you read these you have just become my sponsor or.. um.. people I tell things to so I feel like I have to follow through or I am a poop head. CAUTION.. future journals will make you think I have lost my mind. This is just a this is what I'm doing journal.. expect future food plans and confessionals.

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Now THAT'S the dairyfarmerswife journal I remember ! Ha, crumbs on your boobs! Haha, I had crumbs on my boobs when I was in the hospital last week, BUT THEY were starving me... I'll be your sponsor😁 I have been to OA in Tennessee. It was an eye opener, I wasn't alone. I'm doing much better now. I decided wiping my butt was more important than the whole pizzas😱 I hope they help a little. By the way, where is the dime bag of candy? I can't get anything for less than a buck.. Good to see your back! 
26 Jul 16 by member: Lizzygracemusic
Glad you are back :) I missed you! And yes my days,weeks, months flash past too. Can't believe it's end of July already. Where is the year gone? Yes please, ramble on. 
27 Jul 16 by member: schmetterlinge34
Good to see you back! I agree about the months rushing by - August on Monday! The realisation that you're not alone in a problem is an eye opener but does it help? Does it support you or does it allow you to justify the problem and therefore ignore it? I honestly don't have an answer to those questions so I guess it's different for different people 
27 Jul 16 by member: Phooka
Sending you a hug.  
27 Jul 16 by member: jparlett
Enjoy the advice buffet! It is in your food plan. :) 
01 Aug 16 by member: izzypup68

     
 

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