flaxseed's Journal, 28 September 2009

Things have been much easier since my little chat with OH. It took me weeks to decide whether to voice what I was feeling and exactly how I should say it. I love him to bits but he follows me everywhere, even to hang the washing on the line and whichever room I'm in he has to be in there too. Sometimes if I had only go in to put something away when I turn round to come out I bump into him. I've been unable to pop to the shops or get my hair cut. The only place I'm alone is the loo! He hasn't done any of his normal things and it makes me twice as busy as I have been doing it all (except using the chain saw :)). I think now I should have said something earlier. Today has been so much better. He has been up in the greenhouse and came back really surprised that he'd enjoyed it. I think he'd just got into the habit that I'd done everything for him when he came out of hospital and when he became more stable and had more energy he didn't start getting back to a more normal life. Lets hope this continues cos its not been good for him and I could see him sinking into depression.

Weather not so good today. Cloudy and cold - no rain yet but I reckon its coming. Autumn must definitely be here as the wading birds have arrived on the loch for the winter. I could see them all splashing and quacking and preening when I went for my morning walk. I wonder how long it will be before I will be able to get out to go swimming. I need the exercise so much.

I've spent the day painting my closet, putting up a new shelf and changing my summer clothes over to winter. It looks beautiful and clean and things are now all colour co-ordinated, shoes on the new shelf and bags and accessories hanging on new hooks in the shape of buttrflies on the back of the door - result. I'm really pleased with it. OH's wardrobe tomorrow.

I'm feeling a bit more optimistic now and I think that's going to be my word for the week - Optimism the belief that good ultimately predominates over evil in the world.

Have an optimisic week everyone

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1149 kcal

Fat: 41.49g | Prot: 91.30g | Carb: 107.58g.   Breakfast: Total 0% Nonfat Greek Strained Yogurt. Lunch: hellmans light mayo, tomato, lettuce,  skinless boneless sardines. Dinner: peas, broccoli, pork loin. Snacks/Other: milk, apple, butter, ryvita. more...