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Dear readers,
I am a jerk. Can I ask if anyone ever feels affected when seeing other people exercise? Geez...I am one of such. A complete weirdo. Why am I affected? I tried searching on the Internet to see if there is ever such a disease, or mental illness on it. I seriously need answers for these horrid feelings that are consuming me up, like burning flames on flesh. Just imagine how painful that feels. Yes. This is what I feel. Come on! I even cried! Just because I see others exercise. Maybe you are thinking just how pathetic I am now. Writing this out here is very much like an impulse. I never like others to know my problems...especially not my parents as it will worry them. I did raise this issue to them before, but it has been alright for quite some time, and now that this horrid feeling is back, I don't want them to worry again. Let them think that I am "cured". It's better that way. And I know that writing this IS impulsive. Lols. I remember how people say that you should watch what you write online. Like what if your future to-be employer reads this while checking up on you. What a negative impression it will give. Sighs. I guess I am going off topic. Well, I am not just affected by anyone. I am just solely affected by my sister. She is underweight and thin as a stick. Believe me. 37kg and 1.63m tall! And I am like .... you know how heavy I am. Gosh! And I am 1.5m tall. I feel like a balloon beside her. A PIG! yes, a PIG! PLease help me Lord! Dear God, please help me. Please clense me of this sin. As it affects my relationship with her, my sister. And I feel like a monster. A freak. Who cries when you see others exercise? Who!? Even the internet did not say anything like it. Just people who exercise too much. So why am I feeling this way? So anybody out there, if you ever feel this way before, please do tell me, so that I wouldn't feel so alone. And if there is any explanation for this at all, please do tell as well. Thanks a lot!
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The problem is, you're trying to compare yourself to her. You can't do that. You can't compare yourself to anyone else because they are not YOU. I have a sister-in-law that is skinny as a rail and she eats anything she wants and it does not affect her. We are all our own unique individuals with our own journey that we need to figure out for ourselves. We only know our own selves intimately...we know our weaknesses, strengths, and we know how we can improve (only we know how we can improve). So don't let the sight of others affect who YOU are and what YOU can accomplish. While many of us may never be that thin person that we wish we could be, we can be healthy...very healthy in fact and still have a few pounds on us. And if you cannot stand the sight of her, don't work out with or around her until you are more confident with yourself...confident enough that you don't care what others are doing. She has her own demons. If we all took our perceived and actual problems, put them in the middle of the room with everyone else's so that we could see what everyone's are and we got to have our choice of those problems, we'd take our own back out. "Beauty begins the moment you decide to be yourself..." Coco Chanel. Good luck to you. :)
10 Jan 15 by member: DefactoMuncher
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Thanks Tricialana! I understand that I am comparing with her. I am trying so hard to stop doing it. But maybe I am not trying hard enough. I don't know. It's terrible of me, I know. But I love your last message:) "Beauty begins the moment you decide to be yourself..."So true! I shall check up on Coco Chanel!^^
10 Jan 15 by member: Food lov
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Well, just realize that focusing on her is just pointless to you. Take care! :)
10 Jan 15 by member: DefactoMuncher
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You need to focus on yourself. You see others working out, but you don't know their struggles. That person who is thin and working out hard, may have lost 50 pounds and be struggling to keep it off. Take baby steps. Get some exercise dvds and do it at home so you don't see other people if that helps. As you take steps to eat healthier and get lean and strong, you will gain confidence. We all have different debth's of emotions and different things can set us off. The more strongly you feel about something, the more strong your emotions. So become one of those people you are crying over, and it should help. Never compare yourself to anyone else. Take baby steps in the right direction.
12 Jan 15 by member: Suzi161
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