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So I went MIA again and I know exactly why... I can't keep this damn weight off! I've fluctuated so much in the past few months, I dunno what my problem is! I diet, break it hardcore, then go on a different diet, lose weight and break it again... I need to stop this cycle! I decided to try Weight Watchers (even though I like South Beach better) because I couldn't afford the food for South Beach, lol. There's just so much meat and produce involved in the SBD that I couldn't do it! I went ahead with WW because I know it's healthy and much more affordable... plus I figure I can still eat what I want, just in moderation (and I need to learn portion control as is).
I've had so much going on in the past month or so... I'm pretty sure the stress isn't helping with the weight loss. Ya know when you get to the point where everything seems to be piling on top of each other that the thought of one more thing is just too much? I think that's part of the reason I am where I am.
I know a huge factor has been my move... I moved into my own apartment over the weekend... and I love it, but gosh, I'm nervous about it! I've lived on my own (well, with my significant others) since I was 18 and this is the first time that I'm going it on my own... what an amazingly fulfilling thing, but scary at the same time! I mean I'm not concerned about living alone (I rather like that part) but it's more can I afford it? I have a good job and get paid fairly well, but the fact that it's so freakin expensive to live in the Bay Area and doing it on my own with no one else to rely on but myself... whoa! I had so many unexpected bills pop up in the last month (over $3500!) that it caused me to go into super stress mode since it depleted a ton of my savings... I'll be ok though.
I decided to finally go back to school too! I'm excited about this actually because I'm one step closer to becoming a therapist and I'm doing something for myself! I'm on the accelerated program to get my Masters and I should be done in 2 1/2 - 3 years. The positive point about this is I'll finally get my next degree and I can defer my student loans (giving me some extra cash for now, lol) so that relieves a lot of stress.
I'm definitely staying busy... doing well at work (besides the occasional annoyance of my co-workers, but that happens to all of us from time to time), things are going well with Mike and me... although the constant charter trips are a little daunting, but the time we do spend together is nice... and I seem to see him more now that I have my own place... and being busy will help me focus more on me and keeping my priorities straight... all good things =)
Sorry for the long post... just giving an update =) I'll try to keep up better and comment a little more! Love love buddies!
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