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Alright, I know that my body is just cleansing itself from all the bad food that I have been eating over the past few months. And the weight is coming off quickly. However, I know that this is short lived. Although, I am working out more vigorously than I had been when I first started this journey almost two years ago, so I would assume that the progress will be much quicker. Until it isn't.
I hit a plateau between 129 and 133 pounds. I never really though much about, I thought to myself, "my body has found it's equilibrium and it'll fluctuate between these numbers." While I was telling myself that, I don't think I truly believed it. I was tired. I was so tired of scrutinizing every thing that went into my mouth. I was tired of the scale every morning. I was stuck, and instead of putting the pedal to the floor and plowing through the plateau, I gave up.
Look where that got me. 15 lbs heavier, and genuinely unhappy with myself. Again. I know that I am NOWHERE near where I was, and most of my clothes still fit (pants a little snug), but I can feel a difference in myself, and I don't like it. I hold all of my weight in my stomach, so when I gain, that's where it shows the most. A co-worker yesterday asked me if I was expecting. Really....I look at myself in the mirror and I don't think pregnant, I said to the person, "no, I'm just getting fat, thank you for pointing it out."
I got really upset about that, but then I realized that instead of letting it upset me, I will use it as fuel to drive me. So I went out, and did a walk/run for 60 minutes. I ran at least 3.5 miles, and walked 1. So, I am trying hard again. The weather right now, stinks, and I want to go out againn tongith, but I don't think that is going to be an option. I might have to run in place at home with the WiiFit, which is something that I haven't had to do in quite some time.
I also have to start doing crunches and planks again, as much as I hate them. I know that they will strengthen my core and give my abs, which I desperately want. I don't neccessarily want a 6 pack, but I want a flat stomach...again.
Alright, way too long winded for Day 2 back. Hope to hear from all of you and good luck in your own personal journeys as well.
Diet Calendar Entries for 27 October 2011:
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529 kcal
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Fat: 18.85g | Prot: 31.57g | Carb: 62.32g.
Breakfast: Coffeemate Sugar Free French Vanilla, Splenda, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds). Lunch: Frank's Hot Buffalo, Dole Classic Romaine, Lite Ranch, Gorgonzola. Dinner: White Rice, Green Peppers, Red Onions, Red Pepper, Tyson Skinless Boneless Chicken Breast. Snacks/Other: Quaker Chewy Smashbar - Graham Pretzel. more...
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2105 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Calisthenics (heavy, e.g. pushups) - 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 6 hours and 45 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours and 45 minutes. more...
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