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2/12. Today the IT box showed 171.8 which is so-so. I REALLY want to get into the 60s before next week. My BFF is coming down for about 5 weeks and when she is here there is temptation ALL around. She like to go out to eat A LOT. Even bought me 2 gift cards to restaurants for my BDay, which is nice BUT I really don't like to go out to eat a lot. But I will go out when she is here. Again, this adds to the temptation. At least maybe I can scope out the menu before hand and go in with the mindset of what I will order and hopefully stick to it. She also always has snacks galore ALL over her place. Little candy dishes on the coffee table, crunchy snacks next to her chair by the TV, ice cream and cake in the frig/freezer. EEKKKK and is the one that says to me, "you don't need to loose weight", "you look good" "you lost too much one time and did not look good" to that one I say WHEN? I never got below my weight for me, if anything I have always been over! Oh and also the famous, "you can eat just one" "one won't hurt" to that I finally told her, no I CANNOT eat just one, it sets an impulse in me to eat more, oh and her response; "I won't let you have any more" Then ME "HA HA, I will leave here and go buy more"! "I am an obsessive compulsive eater" Well, I know now she is also trying to eat better and is starting to 'listen' to me and maybe will respect my needs, but still the last time she was here, she said something to the effect, "I know you cannot eat just one and probably don't want any, but it is here if you do want some" or "I'm not going to offer you any of (whatever the no-no food is) because I understand you can't just eat one. Which makes me want to say; WELLLLL WHY THEN DID YOU EVEN SAY ANYTHING??? But I just smile and say "no thank you". But again this trip I might just say, 'then don't even bring it up' LOL. Anyway. At least my kids & grands probably won't come for Easter so I don't have to wonder about all that food they have around when they are here. I just need to keep with my woe and watch when this new guy I'm seeing wants to take me out for food or drink. He bought a bottle of wine last week, which of course we finished and I wanted more. The next day I really didn't do much and could tell it affected me, not in the best way. So I am laying off the wine for now. I am going to a weight loss clinic tomorrow. It is one my boss & coworker are going to. So I hope with their support it will help. It is just that my body is so 'weightloss resistant' and that may be a good thing for some but not for me and not at this weight. if I caan get to 138-142 range and STAY THERE. That would be great. That is the weight I always felt the best at. SO LETS GO! Hope ALL is well in FS-Land & Take care to ALL :-)
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