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I feel like I'm falling...
I just can't seem to be completely satiated today. I just want to keep eating, even though I know I'm not hungry. I ate dinner about 2 hours ago and I still feel completely disgusting. I didn't overeat, I just ate the wrong things.
And now, I find myself drooling over the smell of toast. TOAST people. And, white bread at that. *ugh*
I'm feeling so stressed and depressed. My Hubby lost his job last week. He has some prospective jobs in line and has file for unemployment. Although, I'm starting to feel the pressure of up coming bills--like car payment.
I have no doubt in my mind that God will provide--He always does. I just can't help but feeling the pressure of deadlines and a nearly empty checking account. I work, but I only work 30hrs/week and only make minimum wage.
I feel like such a loser. My job isn't good enough and I feel like I should be able to better support my family in hard times like these. My Hubby has never made it an issue about where I work or how much I make. In his mind, he could really care less if I worked. He's always told me, "Work if you want to. Stay at home if you want to." I work because I would go stir crazy, but now I can't help but feel as though I should have a "better" job.
Sorry for the pitty-post. I'm just trying to be honest about how I feel. I feel stressed and needed somewhere to vent. Thanks for reading. And, pray for us! We could use all the prayers we can get!
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