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I was looking at my weight history today. I have steadily been in the 130s since June 25th. I don't think that I've complained about that at all. I was down again this morning. I think that while I've gotten a hang of the eating and the exercising (which I really need to start doing again), I also think, looking back I've gotten a hang of the mental awareness and mindset that I have been lacking throughout this journey. I've done it, completely subconsciously, too.
That relieves me in a sense. I thought that I would be a basketcase for the rest of my life, and now I realize that I'm not obsessing over every little pound. It'll come off, eventually. When I was 140, 20 pounds to goal seemed like such a far off terrible goal. Like how was I so far away from where I want to be? I felt like I worked so hard, and how could I still have so much longer to go? Just 9 pounds (and almost 2 months) 11 pounds seems so much more attainable. I guess it's all about perception.
In other things, everything seems to be working out for the best. I'm sleeping so much better now that I have my night guard. My jaw doesn't hurt, and everything else is just falling into place. Joe got a job, which is good. He has a reason to get up in the morning and has a bit of a purpose. It's not a long term career, but it's just something for him to get his feet wet. I'm relieved, and things are working out well.
I posted my measurements, and I'm excited to see how low I can get them, without, you know, looking sick. My jeans are feeling a bit big, which stinks, because I didn't think I'd get below a 2. Then again, sizes are all different everywhere.
I'm pretty much over summer. I couldn't wait for it, because I hate cold weather, but I'm looking forward to fall and chilly nights. Jacket weather. My friend has an outdoor chimney (we call it a chimnea), and we just sit out there and enjoy the night and the fire. I cannot wait to do that. This past weekend's weather was perfect for it, but we just went to a bar instead.
Wow, I feel introspective and long winded. Hope everyone's day goes well, and I'll be around on journals a bit later in the day.
Diet Calendar Entry for 19 August 2010:
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735 kcal
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Fat: 16.00g | Prot: 46.50g | Carb: 102.00g.
Breakfast: Dunkin Donuts French Vanilla Coffee. Lunch: Frank's Red Hot Buffalo Sauce, Shaved Smoked Turkey Breast, Carb Balance Flour Tortillas (Soft Taco Size), Laughing Cow. Dinner: Subway Buffalo Chicken Sub. Snacks/Other: Fiber One Yogurt, 100 Calorie Cheez-Its. more...
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