befree's Journal, 03 June 2008

Hang in there! Planning is 1/2 the battle. Maybe you could get your lunch and snacks all packed up each night before bed so all you have to do is grab and go in the morning. Look at how great your chart is so far! You can't stop now!! 

Never giving up, and quit being so danged hard on yourself, for starters. :) LOVE yourself, mistakes and imperfections and all! YOU are worth it! YOU DESERVE the good health that you crave! YOU CAN DO THIS!! The KEY is to continue on and TRY again. NEVER give up, it's an excuse, that we just don't need. It IS hard work... we HAVE to PLAN to succeed or we plan to fail. We ARE human and we WILL make mistakes. Get UP, Dust OFF, Chin UP and back to it, with no beatings! lol Preparing a few days in advance helps enormously, too. You've done so great so far, do not look back at the slip ups and know that they may happen again, but getting right back to it is what works. YOU can DO IT!! :) Have a great, better day! 

Thanks for the words of encouragement. I am determined to go home and pack my breakfast, lunch and snacks for the next 3 days. 

You're way too hard on yourself for making a mistake. It's so easy to get caught up in the thoughtless eating---we all do it. You were upset and you vented---that's okay. You might want to pack some extra stuff in your purse. They have those little peanut butter containers, etc. Nothng really perishable, of course. I felt so bad for you when I read your post. Just wanted to say hang in there. 

I totally agree, missing a meal or being desperate to find something is the WORST feeling. I'm sorry you went through that. I think you really should think about eating that bread as long as your conscience is telling you to, and not put it out of your mind. You have to come to some understanding of how you got there and what you would do differently if you could rewind and be in that moment again. I understand that the situation with the bread, where your family was sharing it at the table was more loaded with meaning than just an "oh I think I'll have some bread" moment. You have said yourself that your family relationships (or at least your role regarding your son) is something you hope to improve with the weight loss. So in breaking the bread at the table with family, you were definitely following the path of "being a good mother". It takes time to integrate all of your priorities into your actions day by day. I do believe that you're going to sort this out along the way, and that you are going to find a way to think about how much this means to you and your life, and how it all fits together. After all, you are almost at your first goal! Look how close you are!  

Count that as a trigger food and stay away altogether. :) Just move on and consider that a lesson learned. I used to LOVE bread and tons of butter. I didn't love the extra weight, high triglycerides, medications, and fat belly. :) YOU CAN DO THIS! Believe!!!