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It's twelve years later and she is still saying that my arms are fat..
And it still stings and makes me cry.. WHY do I care what she says? WHY does it hurt me so much!??!?!?! It effed me up psychologically growing up.. I thought I was huge at a size 6.. After all this time she still drags me back to the same little place..
I am trying so hard.. so hard.. and the doctor says it is stress and not eating enough that is doing this to me.. gee.. I wonder why..
Will I ever be able to free myself from this control??
Dr. Oz says ideal waist size is half your height in inches.. so it should be a 30. I am 5.5 away.. I WILL do this.. and when I do it.. I will tell her that she did not help me along the way.
My body age went down 6yrs to 39. My shoulder girth is down 1.5". My chest, ab, waist, hips, and knee went down .5inch.. my right thigh went down 1.5" wtf lol my bicep strength went from 38 to 62. My body fat has gone down 3%. Lean body mass from 109lb to 114lb.
I need to focus... not sit and cry about her.. about this.. and study for my exam tomorrow.. need to clear this mind.
Diet Calendar Entries for 22 April 2010:
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1329 kcal
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Fat: 45.67g | Prot: 74.37g | Carb: 161.25g.
Breakfast: margarine, egg, whole wheat english muffin. Lunch: eas, kirkland garden. Dinner: celery, campbells cream of mushroom soup low fat, tuna, whole wheat egg noodle. Snacks/Other: Triscuit Baked Whole Grain Wheat Original Crackers, fish oil, apple. more...
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2758 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Exercise machine (moderate) - 40 minutes, Weight Training (moderate) - 1 hour, Resting - 14 hours and 20 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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