I have found an old diary that goes back to 2002, in which I was criticizing every part of my body and writing about events where I made decisions to stay home or not go out with my friends on a certain day because I looked ugly. The irony of this is that back then (10 years ago) I was 73kg, at that time I was 8.5kg lighter than when I first logged into fatsecret. I wondered would my old self have committed suicide then over that weight, or what?
Anyways, the point is I lived my whole teenage years disliking the way I look, ignoring mirrors when possible and hating people taking photographs of me. Later on I accepted the new me and was just living with the fact that this is who I am. None of these two state of minds now make sense to me, in fact I feel sorry for the person I was 10 years ago and sorry for the recent me... why the hell didn't I do anything about it?

I did, but I often quit a week later or so. Ever since I started fatsecret though, things have changed for me. I am a financial analyst by profession, I love numbers, I love analyzing trends and putting them into graphs and fat secret gave me a platform for using numbers and doing what I love at the same time. Also, I realized that often I quit diets just because I don't see tangible results right away, that's why I have made it a point to put mini-targets for my self of losing 4kg a month... I know that my ultimate goal however is reaching 63kg (losing 18.5kg in total). So far I lost 7.2kg...