I just turned 30 years old. I am on the path to self discovery. I battle between trusting myself by noticing when I am hungry and eating healthy foods and being on some sort of restricted diet. When I am not counting calories I feel like I spin out of control. I recently had my secong daughter and I am struggling with losing the last 15-20 lbs. It seems as though every time I lose a few lbs I sabbotage myself and gain it right back. My question is why? I am reading "Woman, Food and God".. it is very thought provoking. I can honestly say that I identify myself as the girl who knows everything about food and is always making healthy choices.. i feel like I am losing myself because I cannot stick to that lately. Once again my question is why...