About me? I've spent my life fat. Chubby kid, plump preteen, heavy set teen, obese twenties and now morbidly obese mid thirties. My obsession with food to cope, food as a reward and food as a punishment has shaped and controlled my existence since an early age. Combined with low self-esteem, depression and negative body image, I've lived in self-hate for most of my life.

I've also been stubborn all my life and anyone that truly knows me could tell you that once I set my mind to something, no matter what the cost, I will obtain it. That being said, my weight has been the one exception to that rule all my life.

I've been to my doctor a number of times for help losing weight over the years and didn't get squat. Frustrated and annoyed that I'm finally ready to do something and my requests for help with my weight problem have been ignored, my natural determination to defy the odds seems to have kicked in and I've recently committed to finding my own answer to weight loss, health and happiness.

I'm on fatsecret and I don't know anyone... feel free to friend me so we can share the journey. :)