I am 42. I am 42 and feeling and looking 42. That's what is scaring me. I have never felt or looked my age. I am trying to adjust to 42 which would be smart since I turn 43 next week.
It was Christmas Day 2005 and we (husband, daughter ,now 7 and son, now 5) were at my in-laws. We thought it was just going to be the immediate family but to our surprise and delight, long-unseen family members began to show up. All I could think about was how uncomfortably large I was. I was so focused on my weight that I don't even remember any specifics. That day I determined that for Christmas 2006, I would not be embarrassed to see anyone.
Christmas 2006 just passed and I am as big as I was for 2005. I guess weight does not come off by hoping.
My husband calls it a diet. I keep insisting that it is not - I need to change my eating habits because I don't want to feel 43 when Christmas 2007 arrives! I am an older mother and I want to be here for my kids into their adulthood.
I want to wear Victoria's Secret!!
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