I have a great life and finally pushing myself to get fit is going to be the cherry on top.

I've gained weight steadily since I began high school. Back then I thought I was huge, oh how I wish I could give myself the wake up call I needed now. I've never lost a huge amount of weight since then, just little bits here and there but nothing significant.

I am not a restricter, I'm a permitter when it comes to food. I don't like fad diets and I am not interested in doing anything that I wont be able to sustain long term because I've been surrounded all my life by people who are constantly losing huge amounts of weight and then gaining it all back once they ditch the diet.

I've had an unhealthy relationship with food since I was very young and now I'm trying to change that by being more aware of what I am putting in my body and how it helps me function. I want to make exercise a normal part of my everyday life, just like brushing my teeth.

I have a wonderful partner who will back me all the way to the finish line & 2 beautiful children to chase around and who deserve a good healthy role model.

My biggest fear for my daughter is that she grows up thinking about food the way I do. I want her to love & appreciate food, to enjoy delicious things without feeling guilty or over eating just to make sure doesnt miss out. I want her to think of food as fuel for her body and also something to enjoy with family and friends. This is very important to me :)

First goal is to lose 5kg, this will bring me under 120kg a number I havent been able to shake.

We have a trip to Australia in October, this is a target date for me at the moment - any loss before then will be wonderful :)