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06 August 2008
MIL has arrived.Diet has departed.
I am definitely an emotional eater because I have been overeating small comforts for the past few days for no reason. Well the reason is probably the present company. And for those of you who asked...she is here permanently! In the South Asian culture it is the norm for the boys parents to live with him. As mine is the only son, there is no debate about which son she wants to live with.
What is so bad? Well, lets start off with her first day. Everyone who moves into a new home is curious about where everything is. So we gave her a tour of the house but she decided to give herself a tour of all our cabinets and drawers as well. Kids rooms, my dresser, my bathroom cabinets. Invasion of privacy!!
Next, she is the biggest exaggerator/liar in the world. We had meatballs two days ago and my hubby commented on how tasty they were. She said "Well I didnt have all the ingredients I normally use but I tried my best. I am so glad you liked them". The problem? She lied blatantly in front of the person who actually made them - me!
Then she is telling everyone that I still havent bothered to unpack my boxes from the container we shipped here. Thats also not true. I unpacked everything that belonged to me or the kids. The only boxes (and theres a lot!) in our basement belonged to her or her son. HE is the one not bothering to empty his stuff because of the lack of space to put the stuff in.
Why is she doing this? I thought about you guys and what advice you would have given me. I am sure some of you will tell me to confront her. I really am thinking of calling the people she has lied to and telling them subtly that I did unpack and the boxes she is referring to are her own and my hubbys. Am I being trivial?
I know I will have to take a stand but she is so bloody hyper-sensitive. For example, when we were packing dishes in Pakistan, she asked me which ones I wanted to take. I told her we should only take the valuable ones because we would be able to buy new dinner sets in America. She then asked me to select the ones I thought we should pack. I did and walked off. Later two of the servants told me that she was complaining that I didnt want to take anything of hers because I didnt like her stuff and that I had no manners. I confronted her and said "choose whatever you want, dont ask me. I only gave my opinion and if something here is not valuable but has sentimental value just go ahead and pack it." She then proceeded to complain to her neice that I had mistreated her!!
So if I stay quiet, I suffer, but if I speak, I suffer. It feels like a no win situation here.
I am going to take the advice of grams and try to get her to start sewing clothes. She isnt that good but it might keep her busy. We already have a sewing machine and maybe that will entertain her for a short while.
Lord give me strength. Please excuse me while I find a nice comfortable wall to smash my head against!!!
02 August 2008
Two foods for thought-literally!
1. Sugar is bad for me. I ate pancakes two mornings ago and about two hours later I got the worst jitters all over my body. The worst thing was that my right cheek also started to twitch badly. In addition to that, I have noticed that when I get off my diet, within a week or two, I become very moody and depressed.I dont feel like doing anything, I cant concentrate and I feel lousy. High carb products are bad for me..bad, bad, BAD!!
2. Eating too many supplements gives me headaches and nausea. I normally eat a multivitamin and a hair supplement. I have added an energy booster (packed with b vitamins and more) and also amino acids to the diet. I have just realized that every time I eat all the tablets together, I get the intense headaches and sinus pain, coupled with occasional nausea. I am going to stop eating the latter two supplements for a few days. If nothing happens, I will reintroduce 1 supplement and see how it goes. I am hoping that this might be able to pinpoint which supplement could be the headache culprit.
MOTHER IN LAWS PENDING ARRIVAL
MIL is arriving tomorrow. I cant tell you guys how stressed out I am, even though I am not sure why I am this stressed out. I have always been closer to my father in law and ever since he passed away my relationship with my MIL has become more and more distant. I think it might be because my father in law always had the last say and he was a wise man so I respected his decisions more. My mother in law and I dont have much in common intellectually. She is into fashion and shopping whereas I prefer going to a bookstore and having discussions about politics and people like Noam Chomsky. Her thinking patterns differ from mine too. I think first and then act, she tends to act first and think later (sometimes, thinking isnt in the process at all!!) Though I respect her as an elder, I dont have respect for her lack of common sense.
When she is here, the pros are that I get company and she helps around the house, unlike some in laws who sit on their lazy asses and expect their daughter in law to slave away.
The cons are that she will try to take over things like making my bedroom and no matter how many times I tell her not to, it just falls on deaf ears. Short of being rude to her, I dont know how else to make her realize that I want to do things my way and in my own sweet time. She thinks that she is merely helping me out because my bed wasnt made and its already afternoon. My contention is that even if it is midnight, its MY responsbility to make the bed.
She gossips about my daily family going ons to her daughters and family members. I never know anything about her daughters children or her daughters relationships with their spouses but every little tiff is made headline news. Every time a kid talks back to me, it is spread around the grapevine.
And then there is the guilt factor. She wants to tag along every single time I leave the house. I do try to take her out as often as I can but I dont want to babysit her. I cant get a break from little bear and now I will have to take her everywhere too. Its not entirely her fault. I feel guilty about leaving her home alone because I know she is housebound and her only way to get out and about is through me. I also realize how crappy it is to be cooped up in the house constantly so I dont want her to be in that situation either.
Sorry guys, just venting and hopefully its just a whole bunch of worrying over nothing.
Hope I get to chat ya'all soon..you betcha (just for you bad andee!!)
30 July 2008
I thought I was back on track but then yesterday we were at the mall and I snuck in a few pretzels.
I had been good the whole day but I hadnt eaten since around 4pm and Son Wise Bear had to go to Drivers ed which is located within our local mall.
Well it was 8pm and I wasnt feeling hungry but a little peckish. I also knew that I shouldnt really have a long gap between meals as I suffer from hypoglycemia (low sugar) and have a bad rep for fainting at the wrong time, in the wrong place.(Philadelphia Zoo, Connecticut mall, bathroom of hospital just after giving birth to Son Wise Bear-worst of all? - during my sister in laws wedding ceremony!!!!)
Well little Bear and Princess Spoil me were with me and they wanted pretzels. So I got the pretzel sticks and ate at least two of those sticks, which I think is like 1/3 of a regular pretzel. Not too bad..could be worse..I could have easily eaten an entire pretzel. Luckily, the fact that I was taking little bears pretzel stick made me limit myself so he could eat.
Got home and made an English traditional dish I used to love called Bubble and Squeak. Basically, you take potatoes, cauliflower and the greenest part of cabbage and boil them down. Toss in sauteed onions and mash. I mixed in cream cheese (chives and onion flavor) and then topped it off with loads of mozarella cheese. Melt the cheese under a grill for a crispy topping or simply in a microwave.
The recipe actually requires milk or heavy cream as a binder but I prefer cream cheese. Oh and of course,low carbers, omit the potatoes too!! Also, my friends used to add bacon bits and shredded chicken into theirs, though I prefer my veggie style.
Bubble and squeak normally calls for only potatoes and cabbage but I decided to replace at least 2/3 of the pototoes I would normally use with cauliflower. When I was eating it, I delibrately kept feeding little bear all the little potato bits I found in my plate.
So yesterday I had a few high carb items but I think I did well in minimizing my damage. Of course the weighing scales welcomed me this morning with a smirk and a pound gain. I swear I almost heard laughter and the faint whisper of 'ha ha..serves you right'.
But this is why we call it life. I am living realistically because I dont believe that it is possible (especially with kids) to live the 100% low carb life. Instead, I am trying to live by trying my best every day and realize that I will have ups and down.
If you climb up a ladder and for evey two steps you climb up you fall one step down, it doesnt matter. You will reach the top eventually, it just will take a little longer. So I will get to the top. I will reach my weight goal/health goal and I will succeed, no matter how long it takes.
29 July 2008
Loads to report today.
SON WISE BEARS GPA ISSUE
So I went to the school today to meet with the principal about Son wise bears GPA. As some of you may recall, he did 9th Grade in Pakistan and the whole conversion fiasco gave him a GPA of 2.8! This is a kid who was on the Gifted And Talented Education (GATE) program in Cali. He was on an Accelerated Maths program in England and on the honor roll in Pakistan.
I have been to-ing and fro-ing with the principal trying to get a reevaluation done. Well today I went armed with tons of documentation. I found information from the Unversity of Cambridge which is the body that administers the tests for private schools in Pakistan. It turned out that a C in Pakistan was actually equivalent to a B in USA. AND....Pakistani 9th grade was actually equivalent to a high school honors program!! Also took proof that the school he attended actually was using the Cambridge University exam program. The principal seemed to take interest and wasnt his usual defensive self so I am hoping that my sons grades will improve.
Also, he spent the entire 10th grade playing catch up because you have to fulfill core subjects before you can take any other subjects so he was actually doing mostly 9th grade classes during his 10th grade. But now, he has the opportunity to test out of two subjects. If he does that, he will end up saving at least two sememster units and get onto Advanced placement programs.
I had some health tests done as I recently got a new insurance program. I dont have the data but hubby called and told me that all my tests came in the normal range. So, my cholesterol and sugar levels are fine. If I get them soon I will try and post them. (I wish I could get the extensive tests that Lucybell had because that was really comprehensive.)
Hubbys tests however were not good. He has very high cholesterol. Now he tells me that he had some tests done when we lived in Cali and he was borderline high at that time (about 5 years ago!). I cant fathom why a guy who knows he is borderline and whose entire maternal family, including mother, is on cholesterol medication would a) neglect to tell me and b)not do something to counter it back then!!
Now he is insisting I only make boiled veggies for him and absolutely no oil. I told him that he should join me on the low carb lifestyle. I just read an article (Which sararay has also posted on the low carb forum)that stated that low carb actually reduced the most cholesterol from the 3 diets tested. Now I have to figure out tasty low carb foods that we can both eat.
I posted in an earlier journal that my current weight was 145lbs. Well I weighed myself this morning, post coffee and a spoon of peanut butter (and partially clothed!)and came in at 141.3lbs. First, I was elated at having knocked off 4lbs in just two days of returning to Atkins but then I realized that the 145lb came from my doctors office weigh in with all my clothes on. I know from past experience that weighing yourself in the buff can shed 2-3lbs from your weight so perhaps last week I was really only 143lbs?
Anyway, whatever my previous weight, I have definitely lost some weight. I hope that tomorrow I will remember to weigh myself first thing in the morning ala birthday suit! The best thing of all is that I am closer now to my target goal then I had previously thought. I will get there... I just need to stick it out now.
Finally, I got into a pair of size 8 pants that have been lying in my closet waiting to fit. The waist closed very nice, the thighs were comfortable but my J-Lo booty felt like it was aching to explode out. I thought I could feel the seams at the back starting to separate and my biggest concern was that my pants would tear during a serious meeting with the school principal. Luckily, that didnt happen, but as soon as I got home, I sighed big sigh of relief that it went without incidence and took them off asap. But at least now I can say with certainty-I fit into a size 8!!
28 July 2008
Hmm..I said I was going to be regular and I will be...just getting back into the swing of things!
Well yesterday, I did do well...in fact I did really well. Though I didnt plan on getting back on Atkins induction, I ended up managing to complete my first full day of less than 20 carbs!
I was aiming for just trying to get in as little low carb as possible and normally that is what happens every day-I start off the day really well and then BOOM!-by evening it all goes down the drain, thanks to some bread or rice.
But yesterday I started off really well and then went shopping to Sams Club. I took an Atkins bar for the journey and it came in handy. I was so excited to see such cheap produce. I had been thinking for the past week or so that in the current recession, dieting is becoming harder to afford.
I recall an article long time ago stating that the more money one had, the more healthier they were and that there was less incidence of many health issues in the wealthier group. Well that is obvious if one considers that the cheapest foods (the only ones that the less financially well off can afford) are usually the one full of empty calories and air. The cheapest breads are basically just a whole lot of air surrounded by morsels of yeast molded to look like actual substance. The cheapest snacks are sugar laden and not much else. Or how about chips? Just millimeters of potatoes soaked in fat, so much so, that you actually consume more oils than potato.
So, in Sams club the bell peppers that were selling for $2 for one in Krogers, were available 6 for $6. I also found 2.5lb feta cheese for $8 whereas the supermarkets were selling 1/2lb for $5. Anyway, seeing the prices also helped cheer me up as I casually picked up numerous vegetables without the slightest hesitation and somewhat relief at being able to buy things without worrying so much about cost.
NEW LOW CARB PRODUCT ALERT! For all of you who have access to Sams Club-I found these ice lollies with
0 NET CARBS
!. They are called Philly Swirl Bars (I think it was a box of 40). They were 4 carbs, but 1 carb of fiber and 3 carbs of sugar alcohol. They came in 3 flavors, Orange cream and 2 berry looking flavors. (Sorry I dont have a lot of details but hubby trashed the box as soon as I stocked up the freezer).
Also, I found Omega Peanut butter that has 3 net carbs PLUS a 1000mg serving of omega 3. I dont know if that is allowed on induction, but I dont care. I like it and I will eat it AND it is low carb.
So yesterday, I ended up having Greek salad with Thai chicken satay and this morning I had a garden omelette. I normally dont eat mushrooms, but after finding such cheap ones, I decided to add it to my diet. I am also contemplating adding tuna to my list of foods but I need a recipe that will get rid of any fishy smell. That has been my problem with Atkins. I am not adventurous with foods like most people here so the monotony of eating the same thing over and over again is killing my diet.
I still cant find the Josephs Lavash bread or any real low carb breads. I have checked Krogers, Meijers, VGs (a really great local supermarket). Where is everyone getting their bread subsitutes from?
I have been telling hubby to join Sams club since we moved here but he has been resistant to the idea (like everything else in life!) Suddenly, he has become an advocate stressing how important it is for us to buy as much as we can from Sams Club in order to stop wasting all the money we have been wasting for almost a year. *SIGH*
He reminded me of that scene from 'My big fat Greek wedding' where the daughter, mother and aunt are plotting a way to get the father to think something was his idea. Thats so true..men always seem to take forever to get anything and when they do..its suddenly all their idea!!
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