Mom, widow and at home desk worker. Trying to get my life and health under control. The number on the scale isn't the end all be all for me as long as I'm healthy. I know from experience no matter how much I lose I'll never look like or be in the shape I was when I was 30 but I want to feel better in my skin.

I hate the naked dream where everyone is pointing out all my physical flaws! lol

I have a tendency to not be completely honest with myself some days and rationalize things or conveniently forget things (like the blueberry muffin dough) I eat until the end of the day is done and I want to castigate myself for failing the day.

As long as I give it my honest best I can win the race no matter how long it takes to run it!

Looking for motivation even when it has to be tough love because I'm beating myself up or wanting to stop trying and to call BULL on me for my accountability.