Sweet Ce

Start Weight:(01 Nov 14) 184.0 lb
Current Weight:(24 Apr 16) 183.6 lb
Goal Weight:160.0 lb
following: Awareness and Conscious Choices
performance: losing 1.0 lb a week

I’ve always considered myself fat, overweight, chubby. My 3 siblings reinforced that self-image for me because they WERE thin, healthy, active. I was tubby, fat, round, and "just like Dad" who called himself Fat Frank.

My parents lived through the depression so they always encouraged me to eat more. Also, Dad would often say, “Whoever eats the fastest gets the mostest.” I became a competitive eater. It’s what I did better than any of my siblings.

In gradeschool I was an outsider and “fat”. My parents said I was healthy and “pleasingly plump.” (ugh! How I still hate that term!!) In high school I followed my one dear friend in to dieting. I eschewed carbs and embraced ExLax. I lost some weight and became anemic. My mother began watching me eat. I gained back what was lost and found some more. In college I was able to slim down a bit but II fluctuated. I still ran back to ExLax frequently.

After college I bounced up & down the scales some more and eventually was able to get down from a size 14 to a size 2 or 4. "Fat" was still my identity. It was impossible for me to see myself accurately and I felt that the scales and the clothes were lying to me….and that it was a lost cause for me to pay any attention to it at all. I look back at pictures from that time and marvel at the beautiful young woman who I know was me – but I can’t relate to her.

So now I’m here….going on 49 and still trying to accept myself as I am. I'm 5'6" and want to weigh about 150 but I’ve put 165 on my official weight chart because I wanted to indicate something I thought was achievable. Let’s see how I feel when I get there.

FatSecret member since: 11 Dec 12

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last weighin: steady Steady
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last weighin: losing 0.9 lb a week Down

Sweet Ce's Cookbook

cals: 96kcal | fat: 7.15g | carbs: 7.62g | prot: 2.85g
Classic Mashed Cauliflower
A great substitute for mashed potatoes.
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Oh, and there's another forum post here "What would you tell your 16 year old self?" that might be inspirational for you. What many of us, looking back, would give our teen-aged selves...you won't need to look back, you can look forward with this wisdom in hand.
posted 06 Aug 2014, 14:47
What would you tell your 16 year old self?
16, huh? Well.... I'd say: this crash diet you are on is understandable but not healthy. You are beautiful, lovable and charming. You have a few flaws but NONE of them are as bad as some other people may want you to believe. Be well, Sweet Ce, love yourself as much as you love others - dance, sing, plant flowers, laugh, enjoy the beauty of YOU!
posted 06 Aug 2014, 14:45
Vannah - I'm so honored to "meet" you. You are, clearly, a brave young lady, taking this step at your age. You will learn so much about yourself in the journey. Take care, love yourself and know that any "suggestions" here - are just that, suggestions. You can take what you like and leave the rest. You are beautiful, brave and inspiring. Ceci
posted 06 Aug 2014, 14:42
How to tackle comfort eating
shmiller: that's a lovely idea and i've thought of it often. i just have convinced myself that it's going to keep me up - a lie, i'm sure but... hmm, maybe i can take your suggestion for a few days and see what happens. thanks for sharing
posted 09 Dec 2013, 11:07
Yollie's Tea Cake
Yolllie's Tea Cake

Pre-heat oven to 350 degrees

1 1/2 cups almond meal
2 cups brown rice flour
1 1/2 tsps baking powder

1/2 cup sunflower oil
1 cup maple syrup
3 tsps vanilla extract
1 1/2 tsps apple cider vineger
1/2 cup malt free soy milk (i've used hemp or almond milk and it's fine).....

1.5 pint blueberries (or other favorite berry)

Put all the dry ingredients in a bowl & mix thoroughly.
Put all the wet ingredients in another bowl & mix thoroughly.
Now pour wet into dry, add blueberries, fold all together gently & thoroughly.

Pour mix into cake-tin lined with baking paper.
Bake at 350*F for an hour to an hour 1/4 depending on your oven.

It will be golden brown when done. It won't rise very much...but you will LOVE it!!!
posted 19 Aug 2013, 20:40
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