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06 March 2009

shew.. feeling like the wind got knocked out of me today. Feeling a bit depressed. In the end, I know it will all work out but... feeling frustrated in the moment! I had an interview 3 weeks ago that I thought went really well, I got the "letter" today saying they picked somebody else. I know it is all good in the long run. Honestly, I wish I didn't even have to be looking for another job. I love what I do right now but it just isn't paying the bills anymore. I've gone from making $60K a year to really... next to nothing and am running out of savings.

Some friends have told me I'd be great working on the mountain selling up there but I just don't have interest. I could go back to management and again.. I just don't have interest. Part of the problem is I want to keep doing what I am doing now so nothing else looks like something I'd like to do.What I do now doesn't really feel like work. Really, I don't feel like I have to work that hard (even when I am really busy) I really just feel like crying!

Ok.. well... I am just ranting and feeling sorry for myself. I know it will work out. It always does, somehow, someway. I have to get back in focus and just know that the universe is working out the details right now to bring forth into my world the perfect job for me. HHMMM.. FAITH!

05 March 2009

Well, just got back from a good workout...that is good. I'd like to take my dog for a walk but he broke his harness... am I brave enough to just go out on a walk without it? IDK! He is such a lovey but has terrible manners. I know.. that is the owners fault. UURRGG! HA

Felt really good to go into the gym today. I noticed that during my cardio workout my feet started to go numb, I really should get back to the chiropractor but really don't have the cash for it right now.

I smoked again yesterday but have a patch on today and haven't, so that is good. Now, I just need to keep it up. It's weird, I really only have the desire when I am around my friends who smoke, other then that I am alright but, it only takes 5 to get addicted again so I do deal with the aftermath of smoking when I am with my friends. I just need to stop, no matter where I am or who I am with.

It was great to be down this morning. Again.. I couldn't believe it. Yesterday I went out with my girlfriend to Waffle House and had 2 eggs, some bacon and some toast. I guess that isn't all that bad except for all the greese they use. I didn't put it in my diet journal cause I really didn't know how much oil they actually use. I did skip lunch well... really.. we could just call it brunch then had left overs for dinner. Who cares... as long as the scale is going down that is all that matters.

I'll have to post this receipe I fixed the other night. OH MY GOODNESS it was sinfully good I even used regular cheese and it was still like 278 calories a serving. I couldn't beleive it. I will post it using reduced fat cheese.
Weigh-in: 182.6 lb lost so far: 0.4 lb still to go: 37.6 lb Diet followed reasonably well
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03 March 2009

03 March 2009

Weigh-in: 183.6 lb lost so far: 0 lb still to go: 38.6 lb Diet followed reasonably well

01 March 2009

Well, I just don't know how I've lost this weight this week. I actually went out Friday and ate a cheeseburger and fries and Wendy's, then went to Texas Steak House with a friend and ate a salad, some potatoe.. loaded and half a filet oh and 1 1/2 rolls and 1/4 of brownie... we went on to the race track and I didn't get to bed till 4 am (the only think I can think of as to why I woke up the next morning down. Yesterday I didn't eat hardly anyhting except for dinner. I didn't get up till 1 pm though. Today I get on the scale and it says 182 and Mother nature came to visit too. WEIRD! The only other thing I can think of is I didn't exercise near as much as I usually do. I still went out almost everyday and did something, like walking around the neighborhood. Last weekend I went to a friends house and I guess drank way too much wine and got really really really sick. From talking to some friends, I did drink a lot but I don't think enough to get sick but I did. I haven't felt up to heavy exercising since. I've been smoking too, I finally told Vic last night, but... I also went ahead and bought some more patches and after I see my girlfriend who has come into town tomorrow I will put them on and get back on the train of non-smoking. It feels so much better to not smoke.

I should really hit the gym today. Vic started back to work on Wednesday so I don't have my workout partner anymore. He is my real motivation to get to the gym. Basically cause, he is motivating me to go each day. I've been saying for the last 3 or 4 days that I need to go. I can't believe how much weight he has lost. I am really proud of him. He looks a lot skinnier!

As far as working out goes, I've found that I like to warm up on the tread mill for about 10-15 minutes then move onto the eliptical for about 30 minutes. I found that if I start out on the eliptical after 10 minutes I am ready to get off. It feels like the eliptical is more of a work out then the treadmill so, after about 10-15 minutes I am ready to stop then moving on to something else I can keep on going. Interesting what our bodies do.

I am hoping to hear back from my job interview this week. The guy told me that they planned on making a decsion within 3 weeks. This will be week 3. I need something to happen cause I am running out of savings. I made 1 sale for the month of Feb. and this isn't going to pay the bills. A bunch of my friends want me to go up on the mountain and start selling timeshares for retail. They all say I'd be really good. I really don't want to and my execuse has been (which I feel is valid for me) is that I can't see myself being to work at 7:45 am every morning plus, my car isn't in the best of shape right now. If it comes down to it though, I will! We are coming into slow season so if I were to do it, now would be a good time to get in and get my training done as season will come in the summer. UUGG, I just don't know about that! Plus... I'd have to work on the weekends too! On the flip side, I'd get off of work pretty early most days. You run 1 or 2 tours a day then your done.Oh, I didn't think about the fact that working up there would not be a good influence for not smoking, all of the sales reps smoke. Again, if it comes down to it I will.

My best friend told me the other day that her company is looking at me as a possiblity for their company. Now that could be really cool. I would love to work for SMTN, I know they have been interested in me but the company has been going through a lot of growing pains the last 6 months and will continue until they make soome needed changes. I am not sure how all of the would work though as there are some logitics and legal stuff that would have to be taken care of in order for me to move my license with them. Plus, it might require me to move to Florida of which I can't just do that right now. We will see...

I kind of feel like if I am going to change jobs maybe I should just get out of my industry all together. Do something completly different. That is why I am hoping to hear back from the job interview. But, like my girlfriend said to me the other day, I'd really have to work then! What I do now is easy and at least used to make really good money. Haven't been making jack Sh*& the last several months. Oh, well... it will all work out perfectly as it always does.
Weigh-in: 182.0 lb lost so far: 1.0 lb still to go: 37.0 lb Diet followed reasonably well
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