Growing up I've always been the heavy/curvy/bigger girl amongst my friends, even with most of my family. I want to lose 40 pounds before my 25th birthday. I graduated from college in May 2008 and I am living on my own, making my own food choices, and cooking my own meals. I figure this is the best time to do it. I hate going home for the holidays and being critiqued on my weight. I feel like I can't be happy with anyone else until I'm happy with myself and this is the only aspect of my life that I'm not happy with.