Group Forum: Smoking vs Weight

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stillmanart

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Posted: 23 Apr 2009, 10:58
In the beginning my motivation was my suicidal thoughts over gaining weight as I tried to stop smoking. I had successfully quit for 4.5 months. I tried dieting, walking taking alli, but still gained more weight. Then a friend told me I did look fat. That was it for me. A drug store clerk commiserated with me. She had gained 60 lbs. I asked her how she had lost it. She said, "I started smoking." I said"gimmie a pack of 100's."

Smoking was a diet pill for me. I hated cigarettes and all the mess and health problems that go with them; to say nothing of the anti-socializing influence they had on my life. (Couldn't visit anybody go places, sit in the theater...).

So I started smoking again and began my new diet for life.
Since then the recession took away 3/4 of my retirement funds, making it impossible for me to live a safe modest life in the future. Then I suffered terrible pain that no one believed until I had an emergency back operation. And finally, my personal life was a mess. But still, I stuck to my diet.

I promised me that once I reached a goal of 5 pounds less than my original goal (which for me was 120), I would again attempt to stop smoking, with a 5-pound margin. Well I weigh 155.5 and am not ready to reach 115.

I've lost 30 pounds beyond what I had weighed when I first stopped smoking, which had been 142 lbs. So I know my weight loss is not just from cigarettes. I'm not secure enough to stop. I'm afraid. Right now the risks of smoking, dire as they are, seem smaller to me than the risk of regaining weight, of getting depressed and suicidal again. Is anyone in a similar bind?



ragdoll9

Joined: Feb 09
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Posted: 14 Aug 2012, 11:45
Certainly.

Suicide is a very real option as we age. My family history has it on both sides. Quality of life is crucial.

Can you shift your focus slightly to adding and recording exercise? That's a component that I've neglected lately because of the high temps in my area lately. Still, it's really important for a better outlook (I'm reminding myself...)
thinker101

Joined: Jan 11
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Posted: 30 Sep 2012, 11:11
While I have no formal exercise program, (ymca,gym, etc) I do walk two to three miles five days a week outside when weather permits. when forced inside I generally don't do more than two miles. The hard floor is very hard on knees and hips.I know the exercise helps me psychologically as much as as it does physically.
I long for the good old days when I wasn't good and I wasn't old!