I have decided that I am giving up negativity for lent. No, I am not Catholic but I am tired. Tired of looking in the mirror and finding things to pick about and not staying focused. I want to lose weight and I have allowed my food and negativity, depression and lack of willpower to control the situation and life for me. Today I got up on the right side of the dirt, yesterday, I signed up for a free health assessment. I have looked into the future and failed, I have looked into the past and have seen all of my failures. Do I ever see the positive? Do I ever see all the good that I have done for myself and others? My kids are 21 and 17. When do I stop putting them first and me last. NEVER! I am a mom. BUT, that doesn't mean that I can't do for myself because they need. They just need me in a different way and I need to let the older version of mom go and see what the new version can do. I need to get exercise. I can do it because my kids don't need to have someone home when they arrive. They are old enough to get in the door on their own. They need a ride to the mall? They can wait until I am done with whatever it is I am doing. Need a ride to work? That is different. I am me and I need to start on a positive note everyday and end on one as well. Today my positive was getting up, showering, and getting all the laundry and dishes done. What does tomorrow hold?
We can do this if we take it day by day and step by step~