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Its almost 1pm and I'm having my first meal of the day. Surprising how food has a profound effect on the body. I was very prepared to tell you how off I feel today. Like yesterday never happened and I'm still in bed asleep right now dreaming that I'm working today.
I just finished an apple and now I feel alive and awake. I kind of happy about my salad bar choices too. I wanted some spinach but I can't use any of their dressings, so I chose some pickled banana pepper-looking-doohickey which squirt vinegar everytime you bite into them. Voila, salad dressing. My other veggie choices were the bomb as usual too!
So last night, I met my "point of return". I'm labeling it as the moment when I return back to bad habits. I had a pretty intense paper to write. Intense in the fact that the teacher wanted a lot of information, and the more I wrote the more there was still to write.
I don't know what time I decided to have popcorn with koolaid sweetened with Stevia. Maybe around 9. I was hungry and thought that was a better choice than an apple. Popcorn is not an approved food by the way. I ate a small bowl, and I thought the vegetable oil tasted a little buttery so I wanted to make another batch with butter. I refrained, but within an hour I wanted to eat again...you know...just to wake up so I could finish the paper. What's the harm in having a serving of Melba toast? Well two servings later I had to put the toast aside. Then, I had another huge cup of Stevia sweetened koolaid before finishing the paper.
It wasn't until this morning that I realized that these excuses were the same I used during those two statistics classes from hell. Its how I gained about twenty pounds in ten weeks. It starts with relatively healthy food, then after a few days it becomes a habit, then a few days more its replaced with chips, soda, cookies, or icecream. Then a few days more its a whole bag of chips, row of cookies, or pint of ice cream. What a huge, dangerous, disasterous snowball.
...and I want my buttery popped popcorn tonight too :(
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