I attended an OA meeting today because I admit that I have a problem and need to get a hold of my weight issues and tackle this before I end up with hypertension and diabetes. I would be a fool if I thought otherwise.
In my quest to see myself with my eyes wide open, it's not much of a challenge to see how big I am, a size 18 and that I am not happy with what I have done with this body that God blessed me with.
I am ashamed of my reckless and thoughtless treatment of it. How dare I abuse this gift. There are many who don't have all of the faculties and abilites that I have and I have this wonderful body and have treated it so poorly.
I am an abuser, self inflicted but an abuser nonetheless. I owe it to myself to break the chain and say no more. No to the negative thoughts, No to the overeating, no to all of the lies I tell myself to perpetuate my bad behavior.
...and YES to truly practicing loving me.
oh and for once...living the scripture to Love thy Neighbor as THYSELF. I've denied myself that Love for so long...this is going to be a journey...but I am prepared to embrace it and begin the journey of gifting myself with LOVE.
WOW...a true Love story! <3