wantachange's Journal, 06 December 2011

It feels so easy at this point, but once I start losing 15-20 pounds I start gaining again. Right now, it feels like I can do it. It is so easy. But history tells me I will just gain it again. That is how it has been my entire life. I'm 163.8 today. I will probably get to 150 and than start the gaining. I just hate it. How I wish to have a normal BMI or lower normal. How I wish to lose 50 pounds. How I would love to wear nice clothes and look good in them! For me it is about looking good, yes health is very important also. I am doing it for health but looking good is equally important to me. I feel these 50 control my life. I want to control my life not my extra 50 pounds. 

I am like that too. I feel you pain. Just try to take things one day at a time other wise you will get overwhelmed. You can do! :) 

Focus on the future and think positively! Don't pre-sabotage yourself. You are not doomed to re-gain the weight because you'll be doing something differently this time, right??!!