oishiiuwu's Journal, 25 September 2011

Hello I know this feeling, and I moved beyond it by first taking a deep breath and when I exhaled I imagined the released breath was my pain, and I did this deeply and slowly until I felt some relief. Then I smiled because that felt better than when I began then I made a promise to me to love me if he won't today and tomorrow is another day but today I will just be. It was not a magic bullet but it slow walked me to me, and he saw me not needing him to be happy but wanting him to join me in my happiness and over a LONG TIME he came back, and we were lovers for a moment but I had moved beyond the craving and we are now friends but I am not sad I smile because before I put me first I thought this new feeling was impossible. So slowly climb out of that sad ditch you have fallen into and slowly find a reason to smile if only for the moment, the hour the day, he will be back when you love you more.  

Thank you very much for your words, I'm trying to work through this.. :/ It's just so freaking hard. I've never loved anyone before him, I just thought I did.. And now he's gone. I have nothing good in my life outside of him. I moved out of state and have no friends for support. Work sucks, school sucks. He was my everything and now I have absolutely nothing. 

Yes, it may feel that way, when love is gone the world sucks on all levels. If you take it moment by moment there are some bright spots, maybe that great weight loss, new curves always make a lady feel Fierce! If you want to feel better (some days I wanted to feel the pain) you could volunteer with children they make you laugh and then we see life differently. Best of luck and keep me posted if you like, :)