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I can't believe that over the last two months I've gained back almost all of the weight I had lost. I'm just really disappointed in myself, but I do understand and see that I am really struggling to find balance in my life. The nonstop barrage of stress that I face is taking it's toll on me and I need to make taking care of myself a priority.
I'm so fortunate to have Dave in my life and two such wonderful boys. They don't care what size I am... but I do. And the fact that I just bought a size 6 wedding dress means that I need to get back on track.
I just wish I knew how to manage things a little better. Instead of restricting down to 1200 calories now to lose weight - which isn't something that I can maintain - I wish I could do something more moderate and just lose more slowly. I can't seem to find a happy medium. I'm either depriving and obsessed or gorging on anything that I want and not exercising at all.
So for now I'll go back to the 1200 calorie diet - because I know that it works and I'll lose weight this week. For right now, I'm going to hit the treadmill because it's raining outside... but I really want to just go back to bed, relax, and listen to the rain hit the roof.
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150.0 lb
Lost so far: 4.0 lb.
Still to go: 18.0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 09 May 2011:
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1426 kcal
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Fat: 35.58g | Prot: 69.01g | Carb: 219.22g.
Breakfast: light string cheese, plum, Sunshine Smoothie. Lunch: Baby Cut Carrots Mini Bags, light miracle whip, turkey breast, sara lee whole wheat. Dinner: salad, Trader Joe's roasted garlic marinara, Trader Joe's ravioli. Snacks/Other: Rhubarb Crisp. more...
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2408 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Shopping - 2 hours, Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 10 minutes, Running (jogging) - 5/mph - 20 minutes, Desk Work - 6 hours, Resting - 5 hours, Sitting - 1 hour and 30 minutes, Housework - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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gaining 1.6 lb a week
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