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Good morning!
So, it's THE DAY...
Today is the day that I go take a ride on the heart defibrillator at the hospital.
I think I'm about as ready for it as I can be. I'm no longer all that scared about it - I spent quite some time last night reading about it - but I'm certainly not looking forward to going.
And then again. I'm looking forward to putting it behind me. I'm looking forward to finally knowing what exercise I can do. I'm looking forward to getting going on my training again. So, in a way I suppose I am looking forward to it.
Wife took the day off from work and will accompany me all day. After the procedure, which is at 8.30 Am, I will have to stay for about 6 hours for observation after, to ensure that my heart is okay, before they send me home. I'm glad I have the company.
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Yesterday at work was ROUGH. Coming back from being away for a full month was really tough. I was supposed to have someone taking over my cases while I was out, but they didn't do much. There is a LOT of clean up work to be done when I come back next week. Boo.
Still, I will mentally put that away and focus on it Monday. I have other and more important things on my mind.
It was nice to see my co-workers again, though. They were happy to see me, and everyone seemed very surprised how thin I look. I weigh the same as I left, and since they can't really tell much difference before and after my surgery - not with clothes on - I probably need to give all credit to the girdles I'm wearing.
I'm so tired of the girdles. I can't wait to get to put them away again. Probably two more weeks or so. I think I'm gonna write to my surgeon and ask.
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My weight numbers are not back to normal. I'm back in the 83's, with a body fat percentage of 10. My muscle mass reads normal, as does my fluid. It probably doesn't matter, but it's nice to see it back.
Fluctuations will always happen, and there is really no reason to be all that affected by them, but I think we all do. We hate seeing "bad" numbers, especially after days to extra effort. I think that's just natural. We put in the work, we want to see the payoff.
I think that the sooner we accept that our bodies don't work all that fast, and accept that we can't control ALL factors all the time, the sooner we can better deal with fluctuations.
I still don't like them, and I still get shocked when I see (in my opinion) bad numbers, but I move of quickly. Weight loss and maintenance is an eternal journey, so I try to not panic every third day. :-)
... but those who read my journal now and then know how many days I have been unhappy with my weigh-ins. It's just part of the game. Besides, I don't think it's fair to put a swear jar by the scale. I'd be flat broke in days. :-)
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Right now, I'm revisiting an old habit. I'm journaling while riding on my stationary bike.
I haven't done this in something like a year and a half. I actually like it a lot. I exercise. I journal. Two things that can be pretty time consuming for me. Why not do them at the same time? I i go with slightly lower impact. I don't think I can avoid doing that, because I focus on my journal and just let my legs do their own thing. I will register the exercise accordingly.
I still get to burn around 500 calories on an hour's ride.
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Today I need extra exercise. I'm assuming that I will have to rest and stay in a hospital bed the 6 hours after my heart procedure. Not much movement for me today. I woke up at 2 am thinking about this, and about my mission on having a high calorie burn daily. I want to reach at least 2800 calorie burned daily, optimally 3000+. It will make my calorie allowance go to the same number, and I'm working my way there. I like food. I like big meals. This is a smart, efficient way to stay healthy and fit AND eat pretty much what I want.
As it turns out, you CAN indeed han your cake and eat it too. Pun intended. :-)
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When I go for the procedure, I have to be in a fasting state. No biggie. I wouldn't have eaten at that time anyways.
But since I know by now that eating after having anesthetics makes me sick as a dog until I throw it all up again (which can take hours!) I figured that today would be a good day for a fasting day. I ate well yesterday. Had my last meal moments before my feeding window closes, and I still feel full. I should have no trouble going low cal today. Also, it will help me stay on track with my lower calorie burn today, even if that is somewhat compensated for by me bicycling this morning.
It's a long day though. Waking up this early stretches the day like crazy, and I do see that I occasionally get hungry earlier than usual. Of course, the biking might also do it to me today. The biggest challenge will probably be that I can't drink anything until after the procedure. That is 6 hours away from now. I like drinking water. I do it constantly through the day. This I will probably miss. Also, drinking plenty of (zero calorie) fluids makes the fasting days easier. Much easier.
Still, I think I'm gonna be plenty preoccupied with the whole hospital thing, so it won't be much of an issue. Fast day here I come.
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There is a LOT of new people on Fatsecret this year. For those of you reading this, welcome aboard.
I see a shift in things. I see a LOT of you being interested in the Intermittent Fasting approach, along with counting calories, and I see very few who are interested in "Witch Craft Mumbo Jumbo" - diets. This makes me happy. I'm on a personal mission to help people realize that keeping things easy and logical makes the weight loss journey so much easier. It's good to see you guys here.
I'm also very happy to see that so many new people are using the buddy system here. I also love seeing that the more experienced users are great at offering yourself as buddies to others. This is what makes Fatsecret so special. The buddies. We can find a dozen websites where we can count out calorie intake. But I think the buddies here are truly unique.
I can of course only soak for myself, but I have built very nice friendships with several buddies and have good conversations every now and then. People shift from buddies to friends. How nice! Who knew that losing weight could what that side effect, huh? :-)
I thin I have gotten 25 buddy requests this week alone. It's wild. Keep it up!
Obviously, I can't visit every single buddy and do a FULL hold-my-hand backup of every single one. But I hope I can inspire. I hope I can motivate to keep pushing forward.
Trust me, the life in the 80 kilo range with lots of energy and strength is endlessly better than being a 155kg chubby. There are no words to express the difference. Every single minute of work that I have put into this journey is worth it. Every time I have gotten on the scale only to NOT see results... worth it. Every time I have had to say no to something I wanted but couldn't fit into my calorie allowance... worth it. All the regrets when I did bad and had to spend a week compensating for it? worth it.
Just do your best. It doesn't always have to be pretty and perfect. It just has to be good enough as many days as possible. Make sure there is room for fun, and for the things you prioritize. Find ways to incorporate your favorite foods.
Life doesn't stop when you go on a weight loss journey. It starts. Keep going, and you'll see what I'm talking about.
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Today, I'm thankful for:
- Denmark's health care system. Free treatment.
- Getting on the bike AND journaling early, so I can spend time with Wife when she wakes up.
- Fast day ahead! Bring it on!
Have a great Friday! I'll try to check in after the procedure, to let you guys know I'm okay. I know the Internet sucks at the hospital, so no guarantees though. (Now, would it be a cruel joke to completely stay off all social media for a day of two?)
Life is good!
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183.2 lb
Lost so far: 158.5 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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gaining 18.5 lb a week
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