jclynne's Journal, 16 January 2011

40.4% bf 42.4% tbw

The statistics are holding true. My body fat percentage is dropping and my total body water is climbing. I didn't have a big loss today after a red meat protein day. Also, I ate a cookie. I know, I know. One of the tenants of this diet is intention and NO CHEATING. Here's the deal, I went to Cosco yesterday, my once in a blue moon trip and there was a box of dark chocolate oatmeal granola cookies. Those cookies looked magnificent. Have I mentioned I am PMSing? I am not hungry, I am not tired, I am not fatigued, but my goodness those cookies were calling my name. Here was my irrational thought, I would buy them and watch my husband eat them! As if that were going to give me any satisfaction. My daughter rolled her eyes and into the cart went the cookies.

The box was promptly opened upon arrival. The smell was intoxicating! I stuck my nose in several times imagining that the smell would be enough to quell my craving. I ate my dinner. I wasn't hungry. I went to do some work in bed while I watched Huluplus. There were five, count 'em five commercials featuring Cake Love....a bakery. Delicious shots of cupcakes, scrumptious shots of pound cakes, decadent shots of icing and candy bits, oh my! Those damn cookies were taunting me. I began to feel ridiculous. I was going to obsess about those stupid cookies all night. I had gone completely round the bend. Suddenly, I had an epiphany. I was a grown up. A thinking, reasoning and in control adult who could walk into the kitchen and eat a bloody cookie if I wanted to. So I did.

It was worth it. That cookie was the perfect mix of bittersweet, slightly sweet, crunch and munch. It would've been better in the microwave for 5-10 seconds, but I ate each bite with intention and delight. I promptly got back to work without another thought or desire for another cookie. I made it a week.
Later, my husband came in and said, "All of the first batch of cookies are gone and I only ate two."
"How many were in the bag to start with?" I said, face neutral.
"I don't know."
"Well, open another bag and count. We do have three children you know."
He counted, "Eight. I only ate two."
"Well, I didn't eat them all. So the kids ate them."
Eyes narrowed, "You didn't eat them all?"
"Okay, I ate one, so there."
"Aha! You'll have to confess. You'll have to put this in your blog. You'll have to tell Dede!"
"Fine. I will, but you know what? That cookie was delicious and I'm not thinking about them anymore."
I did worry whether or not I would have to start all over from day one, but this morning was my typical loss after a red meat day. The earth didn't open up and swallow me whole and even better, I have not heard one word out of those cookies today.
176.2 lb Lost so far: 4.1 lb.    Still to go: 26.2 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.
losing 2.8 lb a week

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