Hi new buddy, and welcome to this FANTASTIC site! It's a life saver for me! I've been yo-yo dieting since I was about ten years old, believe it or not. And I've always felt that I needed an emotional life raft. Well, this is it! My recommendation to you is to journal all your thoughts. Spill them out, let them flow. You'll get really great support and help and encouragement. Everyone on here is wonderful, caring, and most importantly, in the same boat. So feel free to vent! And again, welcome!