Nikitawells's Journal, 21 October 2010

Well one thing that I'm learning is that, you have to get use to more than just your new lifestyle. I just not use to this new body yet. It doesn't feel comfortable. It's not what I am use to. I look great! Feel great! But this body feels like I'm in someone else's skin. This is so new to me. I got sculpted arms, strong legs, small waist. Everything I always wanted. I believe now the reason I did my last self sabotage, is because in subconscious I wanted back what was familiar. I kept wondering why did I go back to how I felt in the beginning. I think slow is much better. You have time to feel the new you! I am very much aware of how my mind and body have just connected. Sometimes it takes a while for your mind to catch up. I still had a fat mind set even after losing so much weight. Looking in the mirror was like looking in magnified glasses. I couldn't see what everyone saw. I still believed I was large. Then one day, the glasses came off and all hell broke loose. I lost it. Now I felt and looked skinny. Ok, why not have that bag of chips. Then, I was stuck (only for a day or three) in the guilt cycle of eating unhealthy and disliking myself for it but couldn't stop! This is how I got fat in the first place. Now I know. It definitely is gonna take time to get use to this healthy, slim new body! But I'm willing to do it!
151.0 lb Lost so far: 75.0 lb.    Still to go: 26.0 lb.    Diet followed 100%.
on diet No more dieting   losing 1.4 lb a week


Good for you. Recognizing the problem is the only way to fix the symptoms. Don't you just hate that vicious cycle of eating to feel better than feeling worse because you did it. We all know that too well. You have a winner and strong. The best success comes from knowing your weaknesses. Have a great day! 
21 Oct 10 by member: tephraim2
Thanks! Sometimes I just don't want anymore fried anything. If it chicken they have recipes for oven fried. And they have Baked chips. I think all the oil and fat makes me want more oil and fat. I want to teach myself how to not go to food as a reward. 
21 Oct 10 by member: Nikitawells


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