restlesshope's Journal, 13 August 2010

well i am a spinless jellyfish! yeah i know all the things and yeah i know where i am messing up i have just never gotten back on plan i know what i need to do but tryin to stay honest here and tryin to keep myself accountable so i am stuck in carbville and just keep makin u turns! i know i need to want this bad enough! so here i sit wondering when i am going to stop the madness and do what needs to be done?
201.8 lb Lost so far: 23.2 lb.    Still to go: 51.8 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entries for 13 August 2010:
1405 kcal Fat: 92.12g | Prot: 115.23g | Carb: 21.14g.   Breakfast: coffee, heavy whipping cream. Lunch: vegatable chicken soup, Chicken Drumstick. Dinner: Avocados, ground beef, Reduced Fat Provolone Cheese. Snacks/Other: four cheese, Red Onions, hormel pepperoni, Celery, dill pickel relish, tuna, colby cheese, hellmans mayo. more...
2340 kcal Activities & Exercise: Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 30 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
on diet Atkins   gaining 4.2 lb a week

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Restless, if it helps, go through your earliest journal entries. Find what it was that made you want this. Remind yourself just how badly you not only want it, but need it. You can do this. Give yourself some much needed credit; you have already come a long way sweetie - don't stop, don't look back. Press forward with everything you have. You can do this. We are all there with you. 
13 Aug 10 by member: kmartin
Ditto! There's always bumps, the important thing is to try and start fresh. Don't feel guilty for what you did yesterday, think about the healthy things you're going to do today. 
13 Aug 10 by member: kmg3366
Bingo, one day at a time is all we can do. Make good choices TODAY and all will be good, you can do it..... 
13 Aug 10 by member: joerobbins2001
yup one foot in front of the other! nobody is perfect, what counts is you are moving (sometimes faster than others) toward a goal of health and happiness. You got this!  
13 Aug 10 by member: LCGlowy
We are all Carbaholics and need to live like recovering alcoholics one day at a time. I have decided I would do the induction phase of Atkins. In fact I promised God I would do it, that may sound dumb, but that's what works for me. You'll have to decide you're just going to do it for 1 week. 1 week isn't that long. Then go from there.  
13 Aug 10 by member: p8riot_girl
I know exactly what you are going through...It's tough, especially if you are used to eating carbs. No one said it was going to be easy. You are strong and wonderful and I know you can do this! I just looked at my fridge and it made me cringe. I just joined Atkins and will be starting on Sunday. I figure I can take today and tomorrow and clean out the fridge and make it Atkins ready. It will also encourage my family to eat healthier as well.  
13 Aug 10 by member: lilsmurf74
RH, I know how hard it is to get back on track after a carb binge. Go back to induction. If nothing else go to your food journal, go to the first day you were on ATkins and copy that menu for today. Tomorrow, go to day 2 and copy that menu. Keep doing that until you get back on track and get comfortable with the foods again. It will take a bit to get the cravings out of your system, but I KNOW that you can do this. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for. So pull yourself up by the bootstraps, and get back on that wagon. This is just a bump, you can do it. I, like p8riot girl, ask God daily to help me with this journey. I ask Him to help make His creation better. It helps to pray, believe me. I did a lot of that on the 11th. And you were there for me. Now it's my turn to be there for you. I have complete and utter confidence in your ability to do this. If it is getting rough, send me a pm. I am always willing to help a fellow traveler.  
13 Aug 10 by member: ctlss
Keli's advice to re-read your earlies journal entries is a good one, as is Stef's advice to just copy your Induction menus day by day. Also re-read your profile, which ended with some strong affirmations you can repeat over and over again. Don't stop journaling. I admire your honesty. 
13 Aug 10 by member: Sandy701
I'm also a firm believer that there's more to gaining or losing weight than just food and exercise. Take an introspective look at what's going on in your life right now (like your son leaving, for one) that might be causing you to slip into the comfort carbs. Will the carbs banish all the "bad" feelings???? 
13 Aug 10 by member: Sandy701
omg you guys are such good friends! you are all right! and i will go back maybe i can find a way to turn around and then find a pair of blinders! mornings and afternoons are ok but the evenings are killin me! i have everything i need to do this right but then go out of my way to go get the things that ruin me! it has to have some thing with the 200 number but i just can't find the block in my head! 
13 Aug 10 by member: restlesshope
I actually wondered about the 200 mark. For some, it's a great milestone, but perhaps for you it's like some big boulder, keeping 200+ life separated from less-than-200 life. What happens on the other side? What does being in Onederland mean to you and your life? No, I'm not a psychologist, but I stayed at a Holiday Inn last night....... 
13 Aug 10 by member: Sandy701
lol thats funny sandy701! but i think you are right 
13 Aug 10 by member: restlesshope
Too funny Sandy. You just made me chuckle in my office.... Restless, maybe Sandy has something there. Maybe you aren't ready to allow yourself to cross that threshold. It can be scary. I was there not too long ago. A day or two before (as I was anticipating it anyday) I actually cried at the thought of it. However, when it happened, it was quite uneventful. Can you look over your food calendar and see what it is that might be causing such cravings in the evenings? Are you consuming sugar alcohols, SF foods/drinks during the day? Are you consuming enough fat with dinner?  
13 Aug 10 by member: kmartin
Glad to bring out a few smiles. 
13 Aug 10 by member: Sandy701
its not a problem of hunger its a problem of bordom and old habits and a lot has to do with simply feeling like i am being punished for being fat so i can't have what i want selfish childish thinking that needs to be corrected but old habits are dificult to break more so when they come from your childhood looking at it objectivly it has something to do with my divorce i am sure if i can't have my marriage then i want my food... as i said childish thinking that needs to stop wow!, guess i didn't see this one coming... gonna have to think on this a bit... 
13 Aug 10 by member: restlesshope
Restless, I come from a family where the majority of the women are overweight. Both sides. I grew up knowing I would be overweight. It was not until I came to the realization that I did not "have" to be overweight that I was able to overcome that hurdle and actually keep the weight off. I had yo yo'd for years. No, I know I can lose the weight and keep it off. And it feels GREAT! You can do it too. I know you can, look how far you have already come.  
13 Aug 10 by member: ALee1968

     
 

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