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I am losing motivation, desire, and drive. I have done so well since march. But I feel myself not even wanting to get on here, which is weird cause I lived on this site up until about a month ago. I think everything that has been going on finally caught up to me, along with the holidays. I kicked my husband out in April because he wouldn't stop drinking. He caused havoc for a few months and then decided about two months ago to finally go to treatment (this has been a 13 year issue). Then we found out that my mother in law had cancer, but she wouldn't tell us how bad, what stage, or if she could beat it. She just kept telling us that everything was fine. Well, she passed away last week. It was terrible to watch her get so sick so fast and then have to sit in that hospital room and watch her die. It's been a rough ordeal and I'm having the weirdest emotions about it, some I'm not sure are very appropriate. Plus I love to bake around the holidays. Although I've never cheated, I am catching myself eating more to compensate for my desire to have treats. I just need to find a way to get re motivated and get back on track. Thanks for letting me rant :)
Diet Calendar Entry for 16 December 2012:
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1388 kcal
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Fat: 89.73g | Prot: 110.59g | Carb: 39.63g.
Breakfast: Atkins Advantage Chocolate Peanut Butter Bar, Coffee. Lunch: Italian Five Cheese, galileo pepperoni. Dinner: red onion, chicken breast. Snacks/Other: String Cheese Mozzarella Cheese Snacks, Heavy Whipping Cream Ultra Pasteurized, Light & Fit Carb and Sugar Control Yogurt - Strawberry, Mild Cheddar Cheese, Advantage Cafe Caramel Shake. more...
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Sounds like you may be trying to eat emotionally. The sweets are a comfort food for many of us. Don't lose yourself in the midst of this trial. Remember to keep your goal in focus, maybe put picture reminders or pull out a future outfit. I would suggest taking your emotions out on exercise, or spending more time with supportive friends. Continue to rant if it helps. Get it out, don't keep it in. You are in my thoughts.
16 Dec 12 by member: 1973drl
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Thank you, I really appreciate that.
16 Dec 12 by member: tlegerski
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I'm sorry for all of your loss and your sadness :( Personally, I've found this site and the group that I'm in to be one of the most therapeutic things for me. Talking about it really does help. Knowing you have people around you, even though you don't know them from Adam (lol), is very helpful and comforting. The people here will accept you as you are. No judgements. Just kindness, support, motivation and encouragement... and someone who will listen. It's like therapy for free :) You never know, you might meet someone here who is going through something similar as you, and by talking to them about YOUR ordeal, you're also helping THEM to get through their own. I've learned from experience that by helping others, you help yourself, and that's one of the truest statements in the world. Good luck to you :)
16 Dec 12 by member: angiekae68
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