Lizzie983's Journal, 04 December 2012

Internet has been fixed at my place! Yeah!
What else? I have seen by chance 2 minutes of "wetten dass..?" which is the German version of "Wanna bet?" and found out I am able to understand 70% of what they say during the show. Wow! Pat on my back :)
I have been studying more German, during the past few weeks. An hour a day, on average. I focused on listening exercises and I improved a lot! I still cannot speak, feel too shy and clumpsy for that, anyway, understanding what people say helps a lot :)

Looking forward finding a new job. I am tired of being home, going to my old workplace 2 times a week. That project is dead, it is very frustrating going there....

Tonight there is the meeting with the friends who don't really suit me, and I am going to skip that. I like going climbing with 2 of them and having coffee sometimes with another one, but all in all, I won't miss much by not attending the full group meeting (it's about 30ppl).
I found other friends during the past few weeks. We have more similar interests and they don't judge me, that's really great. I feel more comfortable in this other environment.

After last week Monday's one, I did not have other emotional eating episodes. I ate when I came back home late, but only a couple of crackers; I can tell it was real hunger, since I did not feel the urge of eating more, and my stomach was satisfied after those 2 crackers and a cup of tea.
In the past, I used to eat compulsively whatever was in the fridge and pantry, it was way different than real hunger. It seemed my stomach never got enough.
I am impressed, it's TOM and I weight exactly as before, even if I can tell my legs and belly are bloated, since I cannot close the usual two pairs of trousers. (it happened also when I was 51kgs).

I still feel very happy, regardless of the problems that need to be solved.
There's an Indian say I love: "There are always a thousand Suns beyond the clouds".
We can be happy even if few things don't work in our lives, right? And we can do our best to improve the other ones, or accept them as they are.

Life is good!

127.2 lb Lost so far: 15.4 lb.    Still to go: 3.7 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.
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Impressive on the German! I kinda know Spanish but would love to be fluent in a second language. I also wanted to say that I understand about the new friends that you fit better with. The behavorist that we work with for our weight program did a whole class on how when your life changes so will relationships. Some will be lost and new ones wil be added. At first you don't believe it, but then you realize that it is happening. I still have a problem w/letting folks go, but there are a few that I have too start thinking about. None the less as you say: Life Is Good. And to add: Every Changing.  
04 Dec 12 by member: Rubie-sue
Great deal on the Internet. I know you must be relieved. Wish I could borrow your German. I'm dealing with a large German bank and could use any help. 70% is huge. Well done. And well done on curtailing the emotional eating. Share your secrets. I'm sure the rest of us will benefit. 
05 Dec 12 by member: Helewis
Hi Helewis! It's not a big secret or trick, it's just a lot of work! I tried to understand the reasons why emotional hunger appeared, and worked back on trying to solve the problems that usually lead me to having a eating raptus. Sometimes it is anger, loneliness, not being happy or satisfied with myself or my life. I have been working on improving self-esteem, trying to control anger or let it go by working out, improved my social life, accepting myself as I am, with good and bad days as any other human being. It helped me a lot to write down my emotions just after every episode, in order to read it few days later and understand better what happened. And I don't feel guilty anymore for having days when I just eat what I like (even if I try to control portions).  
06 Dec 12 by member: Lizzie983
When my emotional eating was at its peak, there were a bunch of "unsolved" things in my life, as an unhealthy relationship with my ex-partner and not knowing how to deal with the loss of my mum. Writing down my emotions helped a lot! 
06 Dec 12 by member: Lizzie983
Hey Rubie, it's hard for me as well to let persons go... even if I am aware they are not the right friends, somehow I like them. And is, Life is good and every changing is. Even the ones which are tough at the beginning... 
06 Dec 12 by member: Lizzie983

     
 

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