madaboutmoose's Journal, 25 June 2010

I've arrived at my hotel and am quickly checking the computer before I wander down to the exercise room to work out. Smooth flight, beautiful room, and I'm happy to be here. The last weekend training in April was very good and I am looking forward to this experience.

Bob's doctor appointment went well yesterday. His PSA is down to 0.7 which is excellent. When he was first diagnosed in September his PSA was over 22. They like to see the PSA below 1. He will continue to have doctor visits every three months with a PSA test at those times. The Eligard shot is still recommended for him for 2-3 years. There are some unpleasant side effects to the shots but if it kills off any random cancer cells it is worth it. We both felt like we had been awarded a new lease on life when we got the news yesterday. It was the first time the doctor actually said she considered him 'cancer free' which was news to us. His prostate feels soft and pliable which is also a good sign. Whew!!

Unlike Kate I decided to go ahead and log in my weight even though it is higher than last week. I am not concerned. I exercised for 90 minutes yesterday on the elliptical (watched Leap Year) and had two chicken tacos, chips and salsa, and an ice-cream cone for dessert after the doctor so I am fairly certain it is simply water retention from the increased sodium in the foods. I didn't eat much during the day so the bulk of my food came late afternoon and evening. I'm feeling good ... balanced ... positive!! About time wouldn't you say??? LOL!!!

So ... grateful I am ...

1. for the excellent news yesterday when we saw the doctor

2. for this lovely hotel room and time to myself

3. for a smooth flight and safe landing

4. for not freaking out about an increase on the scale

5. for feeling GOOD!!!!!

I'm really going to try to watch what I eat while I am here. My plan is to NOT go out to eat and instead to wander over to Wal-Mart and pick up some things I can make in my room. I can save a wad of cash and calories that way, right? I will of course take full advantage of the evening reception and 2 glasses or wine/beer that come with it ... but other than that I will be a 'good girl' ... LOL!!! I will continue to practice kindness towards myself. It is really starting to pay off!!! I find it is rather contagious as well ... even my dear husband (who really is a glass half empty sort of guy) is starting to think more positively and begin to be kinder to himself.

I hope this entry finds all of you well, and journeying along your respective paths with love and joy in your hearts. I will check back in a bit (after I work out and get my healthy munchies for my room).

Take care!!!
183.4 lb Lost so far: 75.8 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entries for 25 June 2010:
1158 kcal Fat: 26.96g | Prot: 119.49g | Carb: 118.50g.   Breakfast: water, Special K Protein Bar. Lunch: Healthy Choice Cafe Steamers Grilled Basil Chicken. Dinner: deli turkey slices, Swiss Cheese (Low Fat). Snacks/Other: Snickers Marathon Dark Chocolate Crunch, Weight Watchers Yogurt White Chocolate Raspberry, apple. more...
2820 kcal Activities & Exercise: Sitting - 5 hours, Treadmill - 30 minutes, Driving - 2 hours and 30 minutes, Precor Elliptical - 35 minutes, Resting - 7 hours and 25 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
gaining 2.4 lb a week

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Comments 
First, wonderful about BOB!Saving cash and calories is always good! :) It is always lovely to hear you talk about positivity and being balanced, you deserve to feel that way. Have a wonderful time.  
25 Jun 10 by member: Deana Garcia
Such wonderful news about your husband!!!!!! so much to be grateful for ! 
25 Jun 10 by member: sharonfriz
I am so happy and relieved for you and Bob. Today must be a FANTASTIC day for you!!! :)  
25 Jun 10 by member: Chris1979
Excellent news about Bob, I'm so glad you guys can relax a bit more now. I don't know what Kate says about recording gains, but that is the single aspect of weighing in that I consider to be the most important. Not that I'm right of course. ;-) You sound great moose, go enjoy yourself, you deserve to feel good! 
25 Jun 10 by member: information
Kate only records losses!! Of course I did record a gain!! And I do KNOW what I weigh. I'm not in denial. Everyone has their own method I guess. I've been playing a bit with mine but I still record my weight almost every day in writing at home in a book I've been keeping for YEARS!!! Of course there are almost complete years missing when I simply stopped paying attention. I will not do that again. That is very dangerous for me!! But ... no scale here so no weigh in .. (: 
25 Jun 10 by member: madaboutmoose
I don't record gains because I know they are not fat gains. I'm not overeating. I'm WAY under my calories all the time. No "slip ups". No "cheat days". Steady, steady, steady :) I have recorded ONE gain, that was around the holidays last year. That was a REAL gain. But I weigh myself almost every day. I just only pay attention to the lowest number. For me its part of trusting myself. Of course everyone is different, but I see no point in being happy because I lost water weight or being sad because I'm constipated. (Other than the obvious reason to be sad if you're constipated, lol) I am really focused on FAT loss not weight loss :) 
25 Jun 10 by member: k8yk
Kate, your method got me to thinking about my own method. Part of the reason I started to post my weight on here less frequently is because I was tending to be 'ruled' by the fluctuations rather than paying attention to to overall. I think I will probably step on the scale almost every day for the rest of my life. It helps me pay attention. So different than what I have done most of my life. I just don't want to get my underwear all in a bunch every time it goes "up" or get overly excited every time it goes "down." Before, I have always 'lost' or 'dieted' for some 'event'. When the event arrived I stopped 'dieting' and started gaining. Real weight. Not fluctuations. Months would pass before I got on the scale again. In fact ... I would have to go into larger sizes, all the while still deluding myself. I am no longer 'event driven.' Now I am health driven. This is a journey that will never end. I am NOT on a diet. I simply pay attention to what I eat and drink. I certainly do eat things that are not especially healthy for me ... I do it less frequently and in smaller quantities than I have most of my life. It is just so funny ... I was always afraid of feeling deprived. But instead I feel so free!!!! I was a slave before, not now. I sure wish I had figured this out earlier in my life!!! Oh well. Now is a good time!! 
25 Jun 10 by member: madaboutmoose
You are on the lifestyle train with me :) Why not trust ourselves? Why feel crappy because the scale said an extra pound. It's just silly. I just posted on the forums that it takes 24-72 HOURS to digest food completely! And that food weighs something. And you eat all the time! So of course your weight will constantly change. You KNOW if you have been eating too much. I KNOW I'm not! I don't need any scale to tell me that. If my jeans are looser, should I be sad if the scale doesn't move? It's self-destructive to let the number rule you emotionally. Why not focus on the good rather than seeking out a reason to be upset? The glass can be half full if you simply decide it is. I'm not saying we shouldn't weigh ourselves. It's a great way to hold yourself accountable. I may even buy a scale one of these days now that my mind isn't under its spell. I threw it out when it was making me frustrated near the beginning. I get it now. And it sounds like you do too! And that makes me happy :) 
25 Jun 10 by member: k8yk
Moose~ PF Chang's is probably not going to be as good to you as the food you had at your great neighborhood place. It's a lot of presentation and the surroundings of the restaurant that make it a great experience. But, I think the appetizers and desserts, of which I've had many (shame on me!!!) are all fantastic.  
25 Jun 10 by member: Chris1979
I think I'll give PF Changs a whirl then!!! There is one in Spokane, about 2 1/2 hours from us but maybe we'll wait until the fall when we are planning a long weekend outing to Portland ... might be a fun dinner out one night!! Thanks for the plug!!! There is a Thai place here in Boise I LOVE but it is downtown and I am not and I'm too cheap to pay for a taxi so I bought a Healthy Choice dinner instead and cooked it in the microwave!! LOL!!! I bought some yogurt, sliced turkey, and cottage cheese too. Shhh please don't tell anyone I bought some premixed margaritas!! 
25 Jun 10 by member: madaboutmoose
I figure the weight on the scale is just a number - I record it for statistical purposes, but if I think that I've been good and/or know there is a legitimate reason why I might be weighing high - then I just don't let a little up get to me. Its kind of nice though when the next time is a nice big down  
25 Jun 10 by member: Amarok
did I overhear something over here? Margaritas?? AY mujer!! How is it that I miss so many journals of yours? You sure do sneak in a lot of writing when I am not paying too close attentions- SORRY! I am reading though, I promise! Great news about Bob!! I am loving reading about your feelings on weighing in, you have come a long way buddy!  
25 Jun 10 by member: cindyshine
Hi Moose! I just got home and read your comment on my journal. Glad you are having a margarita tonight and glad you are thinking about me. I am so so happy for you and your husband. What wonderful news for the both of you. Also good job eating in your room and not getting carried away. Funny a couple weeks ago I was the one in the hotel room alone. Damn if we couldn't get these things coordinated. lol I hope you enjoy your training and have a great night. Cheers! Salute! Nastrovia!! 
25 Jun 10 by member: chattycathy1955
Gosh Moose, really great news for Bob and you. This is probably the greatest news ever. If this isn't a high for you two, don't know what is. I read the posts between you and k8yk and that makes a ton of sense. I really agree. 2-3 days is just about exactly what it takes for me to drop if it drift up some. I am not "regular" so I'm sure this would be exactly what I go thru. Look at my graph and proof is there. Enjoy the quiet time and come back rested. Talk to you later. 
25 Jun 10 by member: The Next Number
Cathy ... I know we need to get better organized!!! I had a lovely day. I did eat some salad (with regular dressing oh my) and cheese chunks and some kind of pasta thingy they had for snacks (I don't know how to spell the hor d vour word) at the hotel along with 2 free beers (small). Now I'm back in my room, enjoying the premixed margarita which is 'okay' but I bought it so I'm drinking it!! LOL!!! This training is right up my alley. Very experiential. I love it. It is all about process and so interesting. Cindy ... thank you. I do feel like I've come a long way. Someone asked me tonight how I lost the weight and if I feel like the time was just right. I know how I lost the weight ... it is simple math. Was it because I was finally ready? Probably. I'll have to think on that some ... probably could write a whole damn book about my theories. Whatever it is I do KNOW that the support of this community, the opportunity to process here with all of you has been a big part of it. I love you guys!! 
25 Jun 10 by member: madaboutmoose
I couldn't be more thrilled to read your journal today! See me doing the "happy-happy-joy-joy dance" for you, and saying a special thank you prayer. ;-) 
25 Jun 10 by member: ImLuuvd
Great news about Bob - hope you have a relaxing time in the hotel and go home refreshed! For me, it was that I was 1 pound away from being categorized as obese - yikes! Not ready, but I had to do something! 
25 Jun 10 by member: abbadabba
Good morning, moose! Thanks for making my morning with your wonderful journal! Hooray for Bob's great news and your wonderful mood! Enjoy your "me" time, buddy. You deserve it! 
26 Jun 10 by member: amryk
glad for bobs good news- cannot imagine how hard anything like this would be on a family. you seem to have very postive spirits and you are and inspiration. have fun on your conferance and keep up with what you are doing- you are doing it great;) 
26 Jun 10 by member: Baileyboo
Glad to see you are still listing your things to be grateful for. I haven't logged in for a while, and it's good to see you still maintaining such a positive outlook on life! Good luck with the eating plan while traveling...that always gets me. You have a good plan in place though, that always helps. 
27 Jun 10 by member: onmyway

     
 

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