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ok, day 2 of the 3 day fat stall weekly woe. Feeling ok. Yes I did put the .4 up the 'idiot box' on the floor recorded, not a biggie but just thought since I was here posting a journal entry I might as well put it down. Tomorrow it SHOULD be going down! But again my body reacts different than what i use to expect. BUT hey, it is my body and I'm doing ok! I'm just tired of being at this high weight and staying there. I SHALL Stay no longer! My closet is full of clothes I would like to wear. I am not using that as a reason, excuse, justification, etc BUT I really don't want to go out and buy new clothes (or from the thrift store, my fav place) AND I don't want to weed out my clothes right now, SO I really want to wear some of them that are too tight now but will be ok in 20-30# from now. I just don't know why or how my body wants to be at this weight! 170+ is really too easy for me to get to & stay than it use to be. Around 160 was when my ex would nudge me and remark (kind of in a downer tone), "so, how much do you weight now anyway?". Then I would get down to 142 and all would be ok. Actually 138 was my best for me weight. So I really want to feel 'best for me again' and STAY THERE! Not because "HIS/EX" voice is still in my head, but for ME. I really want to feel good in my own skin again. It just is so difficult to get there, stay there at my age (64) ok, ok, I'm not using that as an excuse either BUT it does play a role.
BUT I'm am ok today, I feel good today, I'm not hungry today, so all is well TODAY. I do have temptations but I'm good TODAY.
Take care to ALL out there in FS land :-)
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170.4 lb
Lost so far: 4.6 lb.
Still to go: 32.4 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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gaining 2.8 lb a week
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