Michael-Anderson's Journal, 02 March 2015

I totally ate mindlessly today...emotional eating...yukko...one candy bar doesn't seem so bad, I think you really wanted it...I didn't even want the food I ate...I just ate to dull the pain....have not done that in ages...I am over it now...Tomorrow is a new day. 

Temptation is amazing and food cravings are normal as we try to change. Packing some raw almonds, some whole fruit (pears, oranges, grapes) carrying some bottled water around and have a 15 minute break to enjoy this. Be mindful that emotional eating is "habit" and while at work or home it is an addiction. Have an herbal tea….eat some fresh watermelon or pack some raw veggies in your day and make a routine of it. Raw carrots/celery with a couple of teaspoons of hummus…yummy 

Good isn't really good or bad, it's just fuel for the body. If you really want something, plan for it and eat it. If you see naturally thin people, they eat what they want, but in moderation.  

Oh my gosh, I had to learn that food is not good or bad....i went to see a dietician who specialized in eating disorders and my view on food was so messed up....Yes, food is fuel. Do you want premium or a lower grade? I understand now, that nothing is bad for you, moderation is the key. Good point Suzi161! 

Sometimes you absolutely have to give in to temptations and cravings or you'll end up binging which is worse than just eating a candy bar. I'm not a 'punish myself for eating something I 'm not supposed to' kind of person, more of an okay, messed up, straighten up and do better the rest of the day. I'm not an enabler, I just know, from experience that punishing myself and cutting food back is the wrong route. You're only human. I keep bite size snacks around just for the days I need a taste of something, Seasnax grab n go packs 48 calories, Ghiradelli midnight reverie squares, 86% cocoa, 1 square=60 calories, and 100 calorie Emerald almond packs. They're just enough to remove the need and low calorie enough to not really upset your calorie intake. 

So much conflicting doctrine that it's hard to stay focused between the no fat craze to no carb...no, no, no. Then new research that swings the pendulum back and forth. But I've finally come to agree with the conclusion that good/bad food doesn't exist. Whole foods (even chocolate with real sugar) can be allowed in moderation. The worst stuff (highly processed) is not food at all, avoid eat. Label reading has become my side religion. You had a misstep. Plan for it -- you dreamed about that candy. But keep rewarding yourself with real food and a balanced meals (some of Lulani's high-octane fuel). Good luck, Michael! 

I can agree with most of what LuC2 and ruabrannw told me and trust me I have never believed in the word diet. Rather I usually never withhold anything from myself, its just if I stray or start straying then its soo hard for me to regain that foot hold, this is why I had to do that. I agree that goofing up will divert binging and that I am all for. Anyway back on the train though I may not show a loss this week, but its okay  

I know...it's so easy to go from "one little piece won't matter" to "OMG! What the heck just happened!!" I often wonder if I'll ever get to the place where I eat without feeling obsessed (too high, too low, too whatever). I'm praying that when I get in normal body range I can really see that's it's okay to make peace with food. 

Sometimes I feel strong and can allow myself a little bit of some sort of chocolatey goodness. Other times, I feel like I would just be jumping down a slippery slope. I understand how hard it can be when you stray and must find your way back. Do well today and earn yourself that scope. :) 

Graglist, that is a good way to look at it. I honestly in all my wisdom (lol) have never thought of that seriously, thanks. 

Izzypup68, yeah I think I will, did really good today so I think I have earned it back. 

That's the sort of thing I do, too. (what Drag said) I recently was great with calories but got around 270g of carbs. ---___--- So, next day was a fast day! Now that's an adjustment. 😝