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Haven't been around here in a while.. haven't really done much of anything... just having a hard time dealing with shit lately. I a absolutely miserable and I feel trapped and stuck. I am so unhappy in my relationship, and my diet & health is suffering because of it. But, I feel like I can't get out... can't get my head above water... and until I get the strength to do it, it never will get better. I wish I had someone to talk to about it. I feel ashamed.. like its my fault and too embarrassed to talk to anyone about it. I wonder what it is I did to deserve this shit hand I got... why am I treated like such total crap... I am a good, kind person and I deserve someone who will cherish me and love me and not throw my past mistakes from before we even met in my face or hold my kids over my head... someone who wants to enjoy what I enjoy because they love me.. someone who compromises. Did my self-esteem fall so short that this is what I thought I was worth? Do I blame myself or him? I am a free spirit who has caged herself for someone that isn't even worth it... and I have no clue what to do to get out it...
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Hi Melissa, I'm Trish and I'm sorry you're going through a rough time. And I don't mean to butt-in with my opinion, but you're right you need someone who will love you for you and not what you look like or what you did or do. I have a degree in Counseling so I know a thing or two about relationships; and it seems to me like there may be some verbal abuse going on even if you don't or can't see at the moment. And you shouldn't feel guilty about the decisions you've made in the past because no one knows what it's like to be you. My first suggestion if I may is seek a therapist in your area to talk to and to help guide you. If finances are a problem some therapists will work on a sliding fee scale or take insurance. You're not alone and shouldn't do this alone. You need to work on yourself internally before you take on something like a weight loss challenge. Because if you're anything like me chances are you'll head straight for the comfort foods of either sweets, pizza, or my personal favorite soda! Anyway I'm sorry I couldn't be of much help but if you need a person to chat with just message me I'll be around. And if this was too much just say Trish you don't know what the hell you're talking about but thanks anyway LOL See you around! ;)
22 Sep 14 by member: trish30
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