g_ortegam's Journal, 16 July 2018

Crater lake pepper vodka soda and lime. I'm cheering to my pup. I'll miss her blonde locks and her love 😭🐾🌈 

🐶🌈miss mine too  

@skinny. How long has your fur baby been gone ? Someone sent me a little story about the Rainbow Bridge and I ugly cried. The thought of her being happy, healthy, playful, sitting in the sun waiting for me makes me so sad but hopeful. I don't have children. She was my baby. I miss her so much it kills me.  

It’s been 3 years and I still can’t talk about him without tears. I’ve read the rainbow bridge it’s lovely but sad. I never thought I would still miss him so much, people have said to get another but I can’t do it yet, maybe one day. I thought I would be a puppy raiser for the blind dogs association but it’s giving them back after 14 months will be so hard im not in the mindset for that at the moment but I will seriously think of it later. So I understand your sadness, take care of yourself 💜 

@skinny I'm so sorry 😭😭😭 I hear that from people they were able to mourn the loss of their fur baby by getting another but I agree. I couldn't do it. Not yet at least. That's a wonderful goal though. To help that organization and people is wonderful. But that would be EXTREMELY tough 😭 

Oh gosh, my condolences. When my 13yo canine life partner passed 2.5 years ago, i was absolutely overcome with grief, in many ways it was worse than other losses. it just sucks so bad. But we had a great life together and that is all you can do. I did adopt another dog 9 months later who is insanely darling but it took me awhile to fully give my heart to her because i know one day she is going to break it all over again. 

@jenat. Oh goodness! You're right. It's crazy how much we love our fur babies. 😭😭😭 

Hugs to you! Dog lover here - currently have 3 with many who’ve crossed the rainbow bridge. So sorry! 

Maybe were all meant to have more than one pet to Love in our lives. I think it’s partially Gods way of peeping us to lose Moms and Dads and Husbands and Wives. Missing my Annie Min Pin! ❤️ All I had to say was “wanna go” and she would run for the door and loved spending the week with me in the big truck. 

I often wonder that. I think God wants to give love. I already lost my mom and dad some years ago and this just seems worse. But I did something this time I didn't do before and that's let myself feel. I let myself feel all of this the hurt and the sadness. All the guilt. And I am still sad but I'm doing ok. ❤️❤️❤️ Love out to you guys  

I'm on my fourth senior dog in 4 years! Each one has taught me a lot, and helped me heal. It's not for everyone though. Hugs