The best thing about Thursday?? Its one day closer to Friday!!!
Good morning everyone!!! I am hoping that you are all having a wonderful Thursday.
First thing, I want to apologize to those who follow me, who look forward to my journals. I am so sorry I havent been around. I have had such a terrible week, and I was so busy feeling sorry for myself, that I forgot about all the people who count on me, who look for me, who make me feel special and loved. Those of you who tell me that my journals help you, you have no idea how much that helps me. It keeps me going when I feel like giving up. I forgot that we are here for each other, we are here to build each other up and get us through these times when we just want to shut down.
Thats what I did, I shut down. I didnt want to deal with anything or anyone. Its been hell at work, my bosses are jerks, and treating me like scum from the bottom of a shoe. I wish that I could go into how mean they can be to me, and they do it with a smile and pretend to be joking. Its horrible. My husband and I have been fighting, I am having to spend trip money on getting my car fixed, my family is frustrating me, my life just seems to be out of control right now and I just want to throw in the towel and call it. I am angry, and hurt, and just need a break.
Highland Heather woke me up though, I have been here, lurking when I could sneak a peek and she left a comment on my last journal entry saying that she needed me. That woke me up to the realization that I am not here for me only. I am here for all of you too! Our victories, or struggles, are here to help others overcome or celebrate theirs. We arent alone. I was given this place to help other people. And I am sorry that I havent been here! I will be here, Mon-Fri, and then sometimes on the weekends! haha. I am so sorry that I have been absent. We need each other, we need a shoulder, sometimes to cry on, sometimes to sit on and celebrate. We need others who are in the same boat, sailing or sinking, we are in this together.
On another note, I am going to be late with my weigh in, my boss got rid of the scale here at work and it was the only one I had access to that would go up as high as I need it to. But I have found some at Walmart that are 440lb capacity, so when I get paid I will get one and then its BACK ON!!! I am just excited that there are scales that will weigh me!! There was a time that they only went up to 300lbs and if you were over that, the spinny wheel got stuck!! lol I am excited to have one at home, where I can weigh in the privacy of my own home, but I am nervous that it will make me obsess over it.
Today I will pray for inner peace, I will pray for the realization that we are put here to build other up and help them, not to feel sorry for ourselves. I will pray that my words touch someone, that hearts are healed and people gain strength in reading the struggles that I face. I will pray for my friend Heather, who had an unimaginable loss, that the Lord wraps her in His loving arms and helps heal the wounds in her heart. I will pray for each of us, to move one more step forward, so put one more bad habit behind us, and celebrate one more victory. I pray love and peace, strength and healing in the glorious name is Jesus, AMEN!!!
Happy Thursday, remember, tomorrow is only a day away!! Make today GREAT!!!
