KayBuckaroo's Journal, 18 August 2018

So, no calorie deficit for Kay buck today... what I did was more wonderful than losing a few ounces.... I don’t mean to brag but I kind of had several campfire s’mores after dinner, in the back yard. Second time this year I’ve done that, and no regrets! Old me would have not ever enjoyed even one! I’m certain of that. It’s my first summer allowing myself to have these treats since I was a child and they’re so wonderful. They became taboo in my late teens, when I began dieting. I’d have had all of the ingredients, separated, in private, and then beat myself up over it! 😂 My husband and I were cracking up over how messy they are. And of course you have to get the marshmallows just right to melt the chocolate. It was the perfect ending to a perfect day. I’m so happy! It’s kind of a big deal for me and my husband and our boys. Mom hasn’t ever had a relaxing time with s’mores, and as much as I had to eat out there, I’m not in any pain and I’m not feeling guilty ... this is my first time not eating s’mores in private, I guess I’m saying, and I figured out that I had 5, at 150 calories apiece, which put me over double my RDI but I have that set super low anyway. ****Eating for enjoyment**** is a part of the human experience. Therapy says that you’re going to eat something now and then that has no nutritional value, is even bad for you, and that you don’t consume because you’re hungry. It’s different than obligatory eating- probably the exact OPPOSITE and, guess what?! Normal people do this on a semi regular basis! If this is what normal is, then sign me up.












anxious.

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2039 kcal

Fat: 67.24g | Prot: 80.13g | Carb: 298.71g.   Breakfast: Apples , Milk (Nonfat) . Lunch: Oil Popped White Popcorn . Dinner: Honeymaid Mini Smores, Cantaloupe (Muskmelon), Hy-Vee Shredded Low-Moisture Part Skim Mozzarella Cheese, Kraft Natural Shredded 2% Milk Reduced Fat Mozzarella Cheese, Wal-Mart Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast. more...