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I'm so excited!! I tried on some clothes that I haven't been able to wear since high school and they fit! Not only do they fit, some of them are loose on me and I can't believe it. I tried on a few pairs of size 6 shorts, and to my disbelief, there was space!! I wore those shorts in the last two years of high school, when my weight started to rise. And then throughout my time at university, I gained a lot of weight those four years, which I've been actively losing.
When I started my weight loss journey a few years ago, with a lot of on/off time throughout, I could not even pull any of those shorts up past my thighs. Now I'm not really able to wear them because they are too loose, which I never expected to happen. So then I decided to see if a few of my size 4 shorts that I used to wear my first two years of high school might possibly fit. Again, I was shocked - they actually fit! They're slightly snug around my love handle area, but not tight at all; and they fit extremely comfortably around my hips, butt, and thighs. I can actually wear them again after so much time being out of high school.
So I just kept pulling more clothes out that have been sitting in my dresser and closet for too long without seeing the light of day and tried them on. A couple shirts that I would never, ever wear in public because of my fear of embarrassment are now pleasantly form-fitting or loose. When I was twenty-pounds heavier, I could barely even put them on my body, and if I was able to, they emphasized all the areas of my body that I wanted to hide. Now they're options I can choose from!
Another thing that hit me when I was going through clothes was that I am now at a much lower weight than when I first entered university and also when I was a junior in high school. I'm roughly the same size I was when I was a sophomore in high school. That is just completely crazy to me. I never thought I'd be where I am at now and I never thought I'd get to one of my high school weights again, let alone being able to comfortably try on clothes I haven't worn in such a long time.
I cried a little, because it's taken me so long to get to this point and to actually start believing it was possible for me to lose this weight that I've tried for years to get off. I had to constantly fight back thoughts that told me that I would never lose the weight, that I would never be able to wear those clothes again, and that I'm not capable of changing my body. I'm still struggling with those intrusive thoughts. It's difficult for me to imagine myself at my goal weight, but I'm trying to take it one day at a time. I'm setting small goals for myself, so my mind has an easier time accepting those challenges and accomplishing them. And eventually, with due diligence and time, I'll get to my goal weight and I'm so excited for that. I'm excited to see how my body will change more and more.
I also like to keep track of my body measurements, especially when I feel like my weight is stalling. This is from the beginning of the year when I actively started losing weight again. There isn't a huge change in the numbers, but still a small difference.
Body Measurement Comparison - (1/6/18)(135lbs) > (4/25/18)(124.4lbs):
(1/6/18)
Bust: 37 in
Under bust: 32 in
Waist: 28.5 in
Belly: 33 in
Hips: 37 in
Thighs: 21 in
Calves: 12.5 in
Neck: 14 in
(4/25/18)
Bust: 36.5 in
Under bust: 31 in
Waist: 27.5 in
Belly: 33 in
Hips: 36.5 in
Thighs: 20.5 in
Calves: 13 in
Neck: 12.5 in
Difference
Bust: -1.5
Under bust: -1
Waist: -1
Belly: 0
Hips: -1.5
Thighs: -0.5
Calves: +1
Neck: -1.5
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124.4 lb
Lost so far: 35.6 lb.
Still to go: 19.4 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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losing 0.5 lb a week
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