maxie4's Journal, 06 April 2018

Positive energy that my sons death has created for me:

Good morning everyone,
Im off and running this morning for some appointments but I had been thinking in general even though I have been this weight before just how differently I look and feel with my new plan....
I am all about positive energy and how you draw from it and this mind set has literally changed my daily life.....
Many people throughout my life had stated how happy and kind I was..well, in fact it was my positive outlook on life that projects this...and yes I too have days when if it begins to spiral down if I dont catch it and turn it around into something positive...then I will draw negative energy to myself...at that point the day isnt very pleasant one for me...and I despise that so I try to remain positive...always.....
I love the feeling of being elated with happiness so I try to find the positive side to everything...its my addiciton;)
One of the most difficult times I had to turn my negative energies into positive energies was when my 24 year old son was killed in a car accident.... My son John was not only my son he was my best friend too in life...
Theres a lady that I work with in nursing who a month later after my loss had lost her 18 yr old son in an accident too and I feel because she hasnt turned this life changing experience into a positive experience she still suffers tremendously...its very sad to see and its been 10 years now...
But now after my loss of my son and with my positive mind set I find beauty in everything now and my eyes are open to life and the meaning of life... and
the experience of what it holds for me now...
where before my sons death I wasnt aware of this wonderful, peaceful, and appreciated feeling I have in my soul as I now have been rewarded through his loss.
If you are having a difficult day then by all means turn it around and find the beauty in it...
for you never know if this day may be your last special day to enjoy... so celebrate it always like it may just be the last....
then enjoy the just rewards you so deserve..
Live this life so fully... that you are blessed with...
My love and hugs to you all everyday..have a wonderful and positive Friday my friends xoxoxo;)

Diet Calendar Entry for 06 April 2018:
1010 kcal Fat: 71.27g | Prot: 74.58g | Carb: 17.86g.   Breakfast: Great Value Half & Half, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Sweet Leaf Liquid Stevia. Lunch: Amp Energy Sugar Free Amp Energy Drink, Kroger Hard Salami. Dinner: Cooked Green Cabbage (Fat Added in Cooking), Thin 'N Trim Cooked Ham, Coffee, Great Value Half & Half. Snacks/Other: Ham (Whole, Cured, Roasted), Cooked Green Cabbage (Fat Added in Cooking). more...

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I feel your pain. Three and a half years ago I lost my only son who was 25. He left three children that live 500 miles away. Triggers abound.  
06 Apr 18 by member: adamevegod1
I'm sorry for your loss. Thank you for the reminder that we should live each day as well as possible. I admire you for your ability to spread good energy as you do - I suspect your strength touch many that you may not even know. Take care of yourself...  
06 Apr 18 by member: FarmerJeannine
It's hard to stay positive all the time...but I too feel that the more positive energy you can radiate...the less negative energy you pull towards yourself...creating a better day..enjoy the day maxie 
06 Apr 18 by member: wannabhealthier
I am sorry for the loss of your son. I always see you so positive on here. It is wonderful to appreciate the beauty in all things. god bless. 
06 Apr 18 by member: deesplayname
Love and hugs back to you! You are a bright light and make my day better -thank you. 
06 Apr 18 by member: FrankieBluEyes
Thank you Maxie for this. I am sorry for your loss. Your journal entry is the 1st thing I saw when I opened up FS and it reinforces an audio I was listening to on my way into the office. It's not what happens to you that matters in this life. What matters is how you deal with things that happen to you. Enjoy Maxie 
06 Apr 18 by member: chesgreen
I'm sorry for your lost; stay positive and keep going; the Lord knows your hurt and he will help you through it all, even our weight loss...stay the course. 
06 Apr 18 by member: fatsceretjk7
I am sorry for your loss...but you are absolutely right, if you live your life, it should be with a smile <3 Everything that happens has a reason... 
06 Apr 18 by member: Viviace
Thank you for the inspiration and reminder that there is always beauty in life no matter how dark it is around one in the moment. We have to look for it in order to honor those that have passed and be a bit of a light for those still around. Again, Thank you very much for sharing.  
06 Apr 18 by member: JLente
Thank you for sharing your story. Mine is similar and I too chose happiness. I am so blessed to read the positivity this morning. God Bless! 
06 Apr 18 by member: MizzMimosa
My condolensces - You never struck me as a person with which this had happened to - I think your son is with you all of the time and I think that is where you get your extra strength - God Bless - Thanks for sharing in this solemn anniversary - I know he wants you and the family to be happy because he is in a better place , far too young though -  
06 Apr 18 by member: johnwentzville
When I read stories like this I realize how lucky I am. I've lost my father and that was hard but I can't imagine losing a child. We have to remember to live every day like there is no tomorrow. I don't always do that. Your story may help a lot of people struggling. Prayers to you and your family. 
06 Apr 18 by member: mickfan1
My condolences to you, I lost my son also,positive always I admire you and keep the faith. 
06 Apr 18 by member: Vee2310
Wow. You are an inspiration and I am so glad that you share your experiences with us. You never know how your words can help just one person. That must be your calling in life Maxie4, to help others with your positive influence. Not sure if you believe in heaven or not, but I am sure there is a special place set aside for you there.  
06 Apr 18 by member: bizzybee38
I had no idea you have endured this extremely difficult trial. I admire and love you even more! Losing one of my children is my worst fear. I cannot imagine facing it with such love and positive energy as you have but that is such a beautiful thing. Thank you for sharing this. One of my favorite quotes from a previous church leader is “life is to be enjoyed, not just endured!” You are enjoying life and teaching us by example how important it is to enjoy life. I am going to try to do better at finding happiness in every moment. Thank you my amazing friend. Much love and hugs to you.  
06 Apr 18 by member: momma6224
Thank you for sharing Maxie. My heart hurts for you. I have lost a son at birth and almost lost another son at age 3 to Kawasaki disease. I could not imagine watching them grow and loving them then losing them. I am glad you are looking for the positive in life and i wish for you lots of love, hugs and laughter in your future. "hugs". 
06 Apr 18 by member: cherik1
I lost my brother when he was 19 and my sister to a car accident when she was 40. It took me many years before I felt positive about life, but there comes a time when you look at things a different way and begin to feel so grateful that you're alive and able to see all the beauty of nature, and be thankful of waking up each new day. Sending hugs to you Maxie 🙂 
06 Apr 18 by member: Doobrie
💞💕❤ 
06 Apr 18 by member: miapoesie
Thank you for sharing. I lost my son "Xavier" when he was 5 1/2 months old to SIDS. I went to work on a pretty sunny day and got a call from the police that I needed to come home immediately. On the 10 min. drive home the sky turned ugly dark. When I arrived to my townhouse there were numerous police/firetruck/ambulance vehicles in my drive way. I was greeted at my car, escorted into my home and the nanny was uncontrollable sobbing sitting on the couch. I said what is wrong "Sarah" what happened to you? Then the police told me it wasn't Sarah that it was my precious baby Xavier. Then it began to rain on that pretty sunny day! I can still hear him LoL in my sleep some nights.  
06 Apr 18 by member: marshakanady
Thank you for the uplifting message Maxie. Sometimes I "talk" to my family the way I talk to God, even though they are all passed away now. I find comfort in that. Living each day like it's your last is great advice. Time is nothing to take for granted. Every day is precious.  
06 Apr 18 by member: teskandar

     
 

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