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kmartdollie's Journal, 19 June 2012
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Today is Day 20 of not smoking. I have almost made it 3 weeks. I am finding it to be very difficult lately. I don't have a lot of support. I have one friend who quit smoking who should be able to relate, but all he says is that he decided he was going to quit because he saw too many people with COPD. He won't admit to having cravings or still wanting one after he made that decision, which is all well and good but I am plagued by cravings and wanting one and my friend is not a huge resource for support with this. Plus the added hardness of quitting smoking and dieting at the same time. My other friend is no help with any of this, she's off in her own substance abuse land. I get a lot of support at work, but people don't seem to understand how HARD it is. I do get more support at work than I do from my family or friends, though. My parents are awful. They continually question everything I eat as if I'm "slacking off". My 80 year old stepfather criticizes my jogging and tries to get me to eat crap like fish and oatmeal, and because I won't then he's healthier than thou. My mother doesn't want to talk about her own weight issues, so she discusses my dieting as little as possible. She continually expects me to screw up with the smoking, and when I don't she just acts like it's expected, like it's not a big deal, like I should have done it years ago and what took me so long. My cousin is overweight, and all she wants to talk about is her running and how she is not willing to give up her high carb diet or do anything that might make her hungry. My grandmother is no help at all, at least she has noticed that I have lost a lot of weight. I really feel like I am in this all by myself and I'm exhausted. People that don't do it themselves have no idea of the daily struggles and how hard it actually is.
Diet Calendar Entries for 19 June 2012:
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1421 kcal
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Fat: 53.33g | Prot: 122.49g | Carb: 118.52g.
Breakfast: strawberries, turkey bacon, Oikos plain greek yogurt. Lunch: mexican style beans, romaine lettuce, ground beef, Kraft fat free cheddar cheese, Tostitos salsa, fat free sour cream. Dinner: brussels sprouts, sweet potato, sirloin steak. Snacks/Other: Ritz crackers, Blue Bell No Sugar Added Dutch Chocolate Ice Cream. more...
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2957 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 7 minutes, Running (jogging) - 5/mph - 13 minutes, Exercise machine (fast) - 28 minutes, Desk Work - 11 hours, Driving - 2 hours, Resting - 2 hours and 12 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Family can sometimes be your worst enemy, but you have to realize that they cannot quit smoking or lose the weight for you so you have to start depepnding on yourself and and look to yourself for approval. Friends and others can only do and say so much before we either get upset or frustrated that they aren't saying and doing what "we" want them to, or we give up. Belive me I know. I quit smoking cigarettes and the cravings are a real beast. Just find forums such as these for encouragement, cause stressing over family issues is only goiong to sabotage your progress. This is YOUR journey, not theirs so don't let that negativity into your space. Hope it gets better.
19 Jun 12 by member: Tyradenise
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^^^ Couldn't have said it better. :)
You can do this!!
19 Jun 12 by member: Ehre
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My wife and kids were no help to me. They continued to stress me out while I quit. At day 20 it is all in your head although your head will tell you it is the nicotine, LOL.
You have made it too far to turn back now. I am celebrating day 66 and what a difference it has made. I smoked for 29 years. You are doing great!!!!
19 Jun 12 by member: Rhodes1970
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Ditto to what everyone else says- you are doing so great, don't let a little negativity creep in!!
20 Jun 12 by member: wassonc
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