crankybuzzard's Journal, 22 January 2018

Hang in there sweetie.. we are here for you.  

I'm sorry for your losses - I'm seeing that happen to my 88 your old dad lose friends - He is a wonderful story because he had quadruple bypass surgery almost 25 years ago and he exercises , eats well and has deserts sometimes also - My point is to do stuff now , to help you ease through life later - I know your buddies , even though they have passed, are with you and encouraging you / God. Bless you , your family and also your buddies families - Talk to them and share your times you had together and this will help you and them get through the hard times .🙏  

Thank you for sharing. This does sound like a time that is hard to bear. I'm sending you support and warm wishes. 

I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your friends. Take care of yourself❤️ 

So sorry for your losses Cranky. Sometimes life can just be so heavy, unfair & seemingly overbearing at times 😢 Thoughts and prayers sent your way and lots of virtual hugs. I’m glad you’re all keeping the next get together date. I think it will go better than you think. You’re all grieving and coming together...you can share as a sort of memorial to them both. ❤️ 

So sorry for your losses! It is depressing to lose people you especially didn't expect to lose now. 

I’m very sorry for your losses. It is always extremely hard to loose your loved ones including friends. Keep your chin up and live life to the fullest. I see 225 in your future too!🙏🙏 

I am sorry for your loss. I encourage to keep those dates and keep companionship of your other friends, if not for you... then for them; everyone handles grief differently and that small moment can have lots an impact on other. After a list of a friend, another ask me to visit her, but I was not able. I was just discharged from military and the readjustment was not easy. Then, a small cold soin turned into pneumonia and lost one if my closest battle buddies and I wasn't there... she died alone. I carry that regret with me. 

It's a quandary. I've been through it more times than I would like to say. I finally came to the point is that it is not about longevity, but quality while we are here. I am sorry you feel badly about your last phone call with your friend. You were being his friend in the way you have always been. That's perfect. 

DO NOT beat yourself up for words not said. I think we would all have said something different to that loved one if we knew it would have been the last. Take what you're feeling now and learn a lesson. Tell your friends and family what they mean to you and that you love them. Thoughts and prayers to you both and to all. 

I'm so sorry for your loss. Remember that your friend is still looking over you keeping you in line. Make him proud. Prayers to you. 

My condolences Cranky may you find peace in the coming days. 

Its very hard to connect to others when you have loss someone.. I had lost my 24 year old in a car crash awhile back and I couldnt have focus on anything at that time that being said I wish you as much peace in your soul and mind soon...your in my prayers sir. 

There is MUCH in your future, my friend - you hitting that 225 lb mark AND getting to know additional brothers as you tread upon this Earth. Hang tough, friend. 

I am so truly sorry for your loss. We had a dear family friend pass away rather suddenly from a heart attack as well. He was a very healthy man and so his passing was a major surprise. I can relate to you in that. It is so hard to lose your biggest cheerleader. I lost mine, but in a different way about two years ago. My mother was my biggest cheerleader but dementia took my mother away. She is still alive but barely knows me on a good day. When that happened I had to learn to be my own cheerleader. It takes time but it will come when you realize you are your biggest cheerleader. My thoughts are with you. Stay strong. 

Brother, This is one of the sad realities of life as we walk on the path together our friends and family for whatever reasons leave our side leaving us with memories of them until in time we are memories to someone else.lol to you my Friend E. 

So sorry for your loss bud, we're here for you 🤗 

Sorry to hear of your losses CB- well done for recognizing and acknowledging your feelings- it is a very difficult thing to do- Sending you BIG hugs to get through the sad times and strength to do the best you can considering your circumstances. Take care 

Loss is tough. At least he got to see you making the changes you need to make to feel better. Prayers to you and your friends. 

Your sadness is to be expected and I wish we could be there for you. You can honor your friend, who was your cheer leader, by continuing to reach your goal and then maintaining your healthy life style. Hugs to you.