maeday42's Journal, 20 January 2018

Well, I've been on my Keto journey for a year now. I am happy and disappointed with myself (nothing changes). I feel like everyone else makes such major drops and I drip along, loosing a little at a time. I have hypothyroid, and take meds to function, so I guess it should be expected. It's been a year of size drops, I've gone from a 26/28 to a 20, but it all feels like it's not enough. Why is that? You'd think I'd be happier, over the moon with the change! I look in the mirror and still see fat Mae - not "OMG you look great Mae", that everyone yells at me when they see me. My diabetes is in check, I go next month for blood work - no insulin shots or meds of any kind for 7 months. I've decided to go to the gym and use the stationary bike, so when Spring arrives I'm getting back on that dreaded bicycle - yes I am! Yes, I'm very stubborn. If you've following me, you'll know it's my nemesis! Last year it won and I fell, then didn't/couldn't/didn't want to get back on it. I shall not let it win!! I will get back on it. Everyone enjoy your weekend!!
225.8 lb Lost so far: 43.2 lb.    Still to go: 25.8 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entries for 20 January 2018:
1313 kcal Fat: 108.18g | Prot: 59.21g | Carb: 21.61g.   Breakfast: Land O'Lakes Heavy Whipping Cream, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds). Lunch: Chicken Wing (Skin Eaten), Melissa's Daikon. Dinner: McDonald's Big Mac Sauce, McDonald's Angus Mushroom & Swiss Burger (No Bun), Cheddar Cheese , Claussen Kosher Dill Sandwich Slices Pickles. Snacks/Other: Lindt Excellence Extra Fine Dark Chocolate 85% Cocoa. more...
2672 kcal Activities & Exercise: Shopping - 30 minutes, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 1 hour, Resting - 14 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
on diet Low Calorie LCHF Diet   losing 1.9 lb a week

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Don't be so hard on yourself. Look what you've accomplished so far. From a size 26 to a size 20. That's great. You should really be proud of yourself. That's fantastic. Loving myself again was the hardest task I did. But you must love yourself because look where you started and where your at now. Great job! 
20 Jan 18 by member: Proudmomma412
Congratulations for the keto birthday! Don't be so hard on yourself, any small loss is fabulous, I spent years without losing anything and surely you have been the there. It is preferable to go down little by little to lose nothing. Cheer up, you are on the path of a great life. I also have hypothyroidism so I know how you feel but keep going you're doing great! 😘😘 
20 Jan 18 by member: bevigaby
Slow is great!!! You aren't overstressing your body, giving it time to adapt. Your diabetes is under control. Quick weight loss means you would probably gain it back almost as fast. I've heard many on here say over the years that their body image took a long time to change. Much of this journey is mental changes and often they are the hardest. I know it was that way for me. As proudmomma says it can take a long time to feel good about yourself.  
20 Jan 18 by member: wholefoodnut
Ok, I am ignorant about women’s sizes, but 26/28 down to 20 sounds like one heck of a drop and you should be proud of yourself. BTW, my cousin ‘s wife rode a stationary bike while pregnant and had better legs when the baby was born than before she was pregnant. 
20 Jan 18 by member: TomLong
Be proud of what you have done! There are some (like me) that doesn’t keep up with what she starts. I am trying harder this 2018 
20 Jan 18 by member: Tequestamama
You sure got a lot of strength and grit! Good luck 
20 Jan 18 by member: RosAnnB
Sounds like you are using your stubbornness for good with the bike. I had to do that with the treadmill so I understand---Kudos to you. It also sounds like you are dealing with deep seated negative thoughts about yourself. Keep countering them with the facts. You are doing great and most importantly you are not giving up! Health is the most important and I agree with Tom, the drop in clothing size say you have lost weight and also built muscle! Hang in there 
20 Jan 18 by member: Gingerk65
WHAT?! You lost 3-4 sizes in a YEAR?! Wowza!!! look at you go!!!! Keep going till you hit that goal, no matter how long it takes. Imagine how bad you'd feel if you quit after coming this far. WAY WORSE than you are feeling right now. Get moving. We gots work to do. :) 
20 Jan 18 by member: paperdoll2003
You're doing great! Focus on the positive! You went down 3-4 sizes and lost 43.2 pounds! You are no longer in need of insulin shots and medicine! That is all awesome stuff! Be proud of your accomplishments and use that to continue to move forward! I am proud of you! 
20 Jan 18 by member: terriquinn
Wow! that's a great drop in size! I am struggling to add more exercise to my day, and have a recumbent bike that I am battling with. I feel you pain. Also my son went from 319 to 207, and says he still feels fat. It is a psychological phenomena that is trying to break you winning cycle. Keep up the great work, and throw that devil doubt under the wheels of you bike and keep on riding!  
20 Jan 18 by member: SheaDlady
Keep it up! It will pay off! Slow and steady “wins” the race! 
20 Jan 18 by member: barbkahook
You have done a great job so just keep going and stick to your plan. 
20 Jan 18 by member: Athensgym
I agree with the above remarks, love, and concern Maeday42! You have done so many NSV your head should be in the clouds! You have arrested DIABETES if that isn't something to be proud of I don't know what is! You just saved your own life! 
20 Jan 18 by member: 8Patty
The weight loss is fantastic and secondary to your life saving actions. The numbers will fall in line if you continue! Keep tracking, keeping doing what your doing your in control! We are all here supporting you!❤️ 
20 Jan 18 by member: 8Patty
Congratulations on your progress - it is HARD to do what you did! Slow, steady loss is healthy and your skin keeps up / does less sagging that way. There's nothing wrong with wanting to lose more. The last few pounds are the most difficult to lose, and the hardest to keep off. Try visualization: picture your goal weight reading on the scale, or you in a new, slimming outfit. 
20 Jan 18 by member: gz9gjg
3.2 lbs is a big drop!! Don’t be so hard on yourself! 
20 Jan 18 by member: Mistybenner
I don't usually speak here, but your comments sadden me. First, you've done a remarkable thing dropping down to a size 20 in a year! Major!! Please take the time to revel in that because that is a big deal. The other thing is something I deal with every day -- as do most of us round women: mirror blindness! My guess is that this is a protection that allows us not to see how big we are at our highest weights and still get dressed to go out in public. But it SO works against us when we become leaner; we still can't see what we really look like. So we cannot enjoy the success, even when it's staring us in the mirror. Revel in your friend's compliments! They can see you even if you can't. Keep up the good work! This is a slow, steady process and you've done so much already!  
20 Jan 18 by member: CarolinaSings
3.2 is an amazing drop! keep pushing you can do this! We are here for you :) 
20 Jan 18 by member: cherik1
Mae, go get those measurements out and take them and compare and go look at those pictures again!💁🏻‍♀️Do it! NOW! I’m pretty flipping upset with you! You have made the choices to continue to eat keto bread and sweeteners and have kept your RDI at the higher end of your allowance, but you are still dropping weight. You are not the same woman who couldn’t do a WALL pushup a year ago! If you want to lose faster you know the equation. It is at least two thirds diet. I have a non functioning thyroid from auto immune disease so I know exactly where you are coming from! You are taking your meds and you are making slow and steady progress. Your stated goal was to be healthier and to get off your diabetic meds before you retired from work. Mission accomplished! I would say you nred to figure out ehat comparison has you disding yourself and stop making that comparisson. You chose the things that YOU will accomplish! You chose to get healthier before you retired and you accomplished that. Now you are feeling the justifiable letdown. 🤷🏻‍♀️Time to set a new goal miss Mae! 🙋🏻‍♀️What’s it to be, Hmm? Hugs, Sondra! 
20 Jan 18 by member: smprowett

     
 

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