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Well ... My intentions were not to weigh in too often; however, I have been finding I need to weigh in to settle my journey onward. This past weekend was the Confirmation and then the luncheon, and I went off track some. Then yesterday boomed into a total disaster emotionally, which I am still trying to work through - sigh.
Saturday, I started out with my usual food intake. After Mass I was able to stay away from the temptation of the reception goodies. At the luncheon (buffet style) I managed to have a salad, some mixed vegetables slightly buttered or oiled, and a spoonful of pasta noodles in a vodka sauce ... No meat. For desert I had one butter cookie, a "taste" of a torte (two bites of chocolate vanilla cake w/strawberry filling), a bite-sized cheese cake, and a whole cannoli (guilty as charged).
I think I was more nervous than my candidate - fearing I would slip or trip on the tiled floor, and standing for some 25 minutes while all 47 candidates were confirmed (we were at the end, 40th, and had to stand while all those went before us).
Sunday, I returned for Sunday Mass, and out of the blue in a conversation with my mother on the way home from Mass I found myself feeling hurt and angry by an accusation she made. I wish she would stop telling me how I meant to say something, and when I try to rephrase she will tell me that is not what I mean. So, I pulled up the driveway and left on a walk to think ... I returned home and then drove to the mall and walked some more. Food ... I did and didn't really think about it.
Today is a new day - Monday!
Oh No! Well, that didn't go well ~ A door just got slammed in my face, but the person probably did not realize I was just outside the door and ready to approach with a box that came in the mail.
Where are all these emotions coming from. They seem to be flying at me from all directions. I am not really sure what is going on inside me ... My emotions just seem to be all over the place - I am feeling extremely sensitive and vulnerable. Like my soul is completely exposed and being dragged through the wringer maybe? I need a quiet church corner to hide in.
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199.0 lb
Lost so far: 4.0 lb.
Still to go: 82.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 07 May 2012:
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1263 kcal
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Fat: 47.11g | Prot: 67.55g | Carb: 154.36g.
Breakfast: carrot sticks, green tea. Lunch: Coriander Leaf (Dried), mustard seed, Turmeric (Ground), Garlic Powder, cumin, greek gods yogurt, cucumber. Dinner: Horseradish Mustard, cheese, Tortilla, Brussel Sprout, Salmon Patty. Snacks/Other: kit kat mini, raisin, kashi heart to heart, GOLEAN Crunch! Protein & High Fiber Cereal, Milk Chocolate Raisinets, cranberries, greek gods yogurt. more...
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2715 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 15 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours, Driving - 2 hours, Resting - 5 hours and 45 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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losing 2.1 lb a week
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